all along there was some invisible string, tying you to me
"you hurt me deeply but the worst part of it all is that I want to hate you, I really do, but I can't stop fucking loving you."
warning: drug use, sexual assault, addiction, self injury
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Friday finally arrived. As usual I woke up around 8am and went to the kitchen to eat breakfast with Judah and Chelsea. I then went to work out, by myself since I already had a routine. I went to the pool, yoga lessons and the coaching with Judah. This week has been going really good. I have had thoughts of wanting to get high, I think it's normal. Thank God I don't have access to it.
I was watching a movie in the living room, mean girls to be exact and someone knocked on the door. I opened it and saw a smiley Justin smiling proudly with a bouquet of flowers in his hand and at his left I saw Hailey holding a homemade pie very carefully with both of her hands. "Hey Val! How are you? I'm Justin and this is my wife hailey!" Justin introduced himself like he wasn't a celebrity and pulled me into a hug. See, many people say that Justin Bieber is this cold hearted, toxic, manipulative and mean person. He is the absolute opposite. Same with Hailey, I don't understand why they get so much hate honestly. "Heyy girl." Hails said like she was my longtime friend and hugged me as well. I let them both in and said "Hey guys, Chelsea and Judah are actually sleeping right now." I continued my way to the backyard and they followed me. "I'll put this in the kitchen, these flowers are for you val." Justin said taking the pie from Hailey's hands and walking to the kitchen. Me and Hailey continued our way to the backyard.
"I'm so proud of you for being here val." Hailey said sincerely and sitting on one of the couches. "That means a lot hails. I don't even remember how it all started. I think I was in so much pain that I wanted it to disappear." I explained sitting down in a couch as well. "What am I missing?" Justin comes in with a huge smile on his face and makes his way to the other couch. "Sh babe, she's telling her story." Hailey said making Justin be quiet. "Well basically it all started when I started dating this guy called Noah. He's now a singer I think. We were together back in our hometown in Connecticut. We went to the same high school. I became a part of him. I was no longer myself. I was so invested in him and what he was doing when he was not with me that I became like an accessory to him. Suddenly one day he broke up with me and I felt like my world was falling apart. I literally didn't eat or shower for two weeks." I explained as I saw them listening very carefully. "Heartbreaks suck but that might've sucked. You felt like you were losing a part of yourself." Justin said trying to keep up with what I was saying. "Yeah exactly. Then it looked like it was getting better, I got out of my room. Started going out with my sister. Then I got an email from IMG. To sign a modeling contract. I had to move to New York so I did. I moved to a whole new city at sixteen years old and coping with a heartbreak. That was the issue. I was alone. I felt depressed and lonely. I felt like I was accomplishing my dreams, getting paid tons of money but at the end of the day it was just me in my apartment at fucking sixteen years old. I didn't know how to cope with it. One day Miley invited me to a party and I thought 'Why not?' I regret going to that party." Justin looked at me shocked. "I can't believe you were that brave to move out at sixteen, it's normal to fall in the process." Hailey said placing one of her hands on top of mine. "What you are saying makes me remember of my younger self. I felt exactly the same at exactly the same age." Justin confessed. He's been famous since he was fifteen years old, he was young too. I just didn't know his addictions started that early. "Well yeah. So in that party I got drunk in attempt to forget about my ex boyfriend but it didn't work. It failed. I still felt lonely. I went to cry to a hallway and a guy came and gave me this drug. And that was it. When my addiction started. Then I would do the same amounts. On my birthday I overdosed. I took way too much and I had to be taken to the hospital. And now here I am." I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. Justin and Hailey were speechless until Hailey finally said "Well baby I think you sometimes need to fall to be able to rise again."
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