Sky Memoir

Puzzled

Is this even a feeling?
When your heartbeat is normal,
But does it still feel abnormal?

Does something like this exist?
When you don't have a problem,
But you feel like the person with the most burden?

My mind and heart don't agree,
I want to listen to right.

I want to be heard,
But I don't want to express myself.

I want everything to get out of my head,
At the same time, I want to know everything.

I have the time to waste,
But I don't have the time for what actually I should do.

In the end, I don't want to regret anything,
But I'm still not doing anything for it.

I have the right direction,
But I don't dare to walk.

Is this my fault or the circumstance I'm in?
Because life's treating me wrong.
Or I'm the one at fault!
Because I never see the right.

Is this the situation or the circumstance,
That I'm still here working, but from afar,
I want to achieve that something I want,
But why I'm scared?

I'm confused,
I'm an overthinker,
I take things personally,
That doesn't mean I'm bad.

I feel pressured,
I feel regret and guilt,
But that doesn't mean I did anything wrong.

Hopefully, I did right.

I'm scared,
I'm afraid to be happy,
I'm a puzzle who is puzzled.

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Posted on: 09 Feb, 2022.