Y E L L O W_

i love you more

'i love you'
'i love you more'
'no i love you more'
'I LOVE YOU MORE'
i don't understand
why one would desire an imbalance of love
why don't we desire an equal love?

maybe to prove our love discarding all doubts?

won't it make you feel inferior?
to know you're loved less than what you radiate?
my heart couldn't take it

then why do you always play?

isn't self destructive?
an active way to hurt ones self intentionally emotionally?
i just want to be loved

then you should let people in

i can't

we live in a cruel world
filled with cruel words and cruel acts
cruel thoughts and souls

save me

it's a hopeless mess
full of fragile beauty
and chaotic love

why is it always love that hurts us most?

there's beauty in pain

and i am an ugly boy

let go

i just want to be taken for who i am in all that i can be

hopeless

why am i so messed up?

because you always play

i guess i won the 'i love you more' game.