Am I Worth Your Time?

Part 14

"Nah. It was self defense. Plus, you were doing me a favor. My boss tells me I can't beat the shit outta him so thanks kid" he said walking out with the Alan guy on his shoulders

I sighed out and ran a hand through my hair. I realized Dylan was still next to me "A-are you ok?" I asked checking her visible skin

She softly nodded "I'm fine. Are you ok?" She asked me

"Yeah yeah I'm fine" I said with another sigh

It was silent for a second "You called me your girlfriend" she said looking up to me

I opened and closed my mouth, nothing coming out. She just kissed me and stood up "Let's get outta here I'm starving" she said taking my hand to walk with her

I felt bad for not saying anything about the whole girlfriend thing and i don't know why I was so hesitant to just ask her. I mean, I definitely like her and she likes me and we basically act like we're dating.

"Dylan I-"

"Tobin I-" we both said at the same time

We chuckled and looked down " You first" she said

I sighed and tried to look down to get my train of thought again "ok um" I said clearing my throat "I want you to be my girlfriend, but I don't- I'm not-" I took a deep breath "I'm not ready right now." My eyes started to hold unshed tears "I just had my mom taken from me not even a year ago and I still don't know why, I saw my best friend get ripped out of my life, I moved to a new town I know nothing about that holds people I know nothing about, I left all my friends, my dads marrying someone I barely even know. My life is so fucked up right now. I don't know what I want Dyl. I've never acted out so much, I've never screamed at my dad and ran away like I did. I'm so confused a-and angry and I-I don't know what I want with my life, b-but I know that I like you and I love to sing and skate and laugh and you and those things distract me from everything else bad in my life. Just please stay with me; go easy on me. I need you." My voice cracked and the tears were now stained onto my face as I finally expressed how I felt. My lip quivered as I waited for her to talk. She just had a look in her eye I knew nothing about, but it was calming and hypnotizing

She grabbed my neck and pulled me down to kiss her passionately "I'm not going anywhere Toby. I'm right here and I'm all yours" she said against my lips

"You promise?" I asked her in the most vulnerable voice I had

She pulled away and looked me in the eyes as she softly wiped my tears "Promise" she said kissing me

"You're just a big softy that needs love and I'll be here to give it to you. You're important and you have friends and family that love you. You'll get through this Toby" she said giving me a hug. I found comfort in her small frame and delicate arms

"Now! Let's go get something to eat. Your treat!" She said with a big smile which made me laugh

She grabbed my hand and skipped down the sidewalk, dragging me along with her. She really is my shot of espresso and ray of sunshine on my cloudiest of days

Once we got to the diner we sat down. Me sitting on the inside and Dylan sitting next to me wrapping my arm around her I kissed her head and squeezed her a little tighter

We conversed on if we should share something or not when I heard the voice that irritates me most the time "Why am I never invited" Caden said as he stormed over to our table

Dylan sighed "Because we're on a date Caden."

"And? I'll third wheel" he said sitting down on the open side of the booth