"It was probably my fault for getting attached to you." She said. "Both of us knew you would eventually leave."
Winter looks at her with concern, as if she never meant to hurt her the way she did.
"I almost wish we never met." Karina chuckled bitterly, "But, a part of me still loved the memories we shared in those four years."
Winter's eyes turned watery. She closed her fist out of anger. Not to the girl who's driving but to herself.
If only she didn't let her emotions control over her that day, they could've been living up to their dreams together right now.
"Karina," She called softly
The older female hummed in response.
"I love you." She murmured out of the blue
Karina freezes, she blinked a couple of times. She didn't expect that, yet she kept her composure
'She's drunk, Rina.' She thought to herself
"Why do you still love me?" She asked calmly
"I don't know." The other replied
Karina took a deep breath, then blew it out.
"Then why did you stop?"
"I think I never did."
"And Lia?" Karina scoffed, she couldn't believe what she's hearing. "You're so fucking unfair, Winter. Do you know that?" She held the steering wheel tight and speed up a little
"I know, trust me. I wanted to kill myself for all of this." Karina's face softened at her remarked, she slowed down but she didn't stopped
"I did love her. In those, two years we had I wholeheartedly did, but it drastically changed as time went by. I can't stop remembering you, it all keeps flooding back just when I thought it's gone. I am so fucked up. Lia is so sweet, and I hurt her.. just like how I hurt you."
"So that's it? you're coming back to me because you lost her? I can't fucking believe you. I'm just a second option to you then." Karina scoffed, pissed.
"No, Karina! Please, let me court you again Karina." Winter sounded determined
Karina rolled her eyes, "Make up your mind, Winter."
"I'm serious. This time I promise I'll treat you better."
"You promised the same thing too, look where it got us." Karina forced a laugh
"What do you want me to do? I can't let you go this time." Winter tried to move but her head started aching, she rested her head back on the seat
"Ask me that question again when you're sober, Winter. Besides, Yeji is also courting me and don't assume I'll accept you that fast."
Winter crossed her arms, she suddenly feel dizzy. The alcohol still has some effect on her.
"Was she the one who took care of you?" She asked while staring out the window
"Yes."
"Do you like her?"
"Yes," Karina answered without hesitating
Winter exhales deeply. She opened her mouth and closes it again.
They were near the same old apartment they rented together.
"You'll stay with me tonight. Yuna and Ryujin said they're out of town."
She remained quiet. Soon as Karina parked the car Winter opened the door and stood up by herself, but she fell quickly and her vision went black for a second
"For fucks sake!" She heard Karina cursed her way towards her
"What? You're concerned for me now?" Winter giggled
Karina huffed in annoyance, "No, I'm afraid you'll scratch Yeji's babiest car."
Winter lay down the cold ground, her eyes darted at the night full of stars.
"Winter, get up!"
"Lay down with me. It's beautiful!"
Karina held the bridge of her nose. "You're still a pain in the ass!" She snarled
"I'm leaving you."
Winter didn't moved an inch.
"Karina?"
They both heard someone familiar calling for her name.
"Yeji?!" Karina yelled questioningly
Karina was ready to walk towards the girl when a hand stops the helm of her leather jacket
"Stay with me, Karina."
The girl looked at her then to Yeji. Deciding on what to do. The latter swayed from left to right as she fell out of dizziness.
Karina pulled away from Winter's grasp and went to Yeji as fast as she can to check on her.
The younger female had her head hung low. She watched as Karina gently cupped Yeji's face and ask if she's hurt.
Winter helped herself up.
"Is this the same thing you felt when you saw me with Lia?" She whispered into thin air
Winter let them be lost in their own worlds as she watch the both of them leave her behind. Karina had her hands around Yeji's waist, supporting her on their way inside the building, and just like that she forgot she was with Winter.
She smiled bitterly.
"I guess I deserve this."
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Miss Pessimistic | winrina/jiminjeong
Fanfiction"Please, just this once... tell me you love me." Deep down we both knew it would only lead to pain... but we still got carried away. We risked everything even ourselves, it was getting destructive. Right then, I knew what we had to do, and that is t...
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