So I'm bringing this book back lolol. I'm still not in the dsmp fandom anymore just liked the idea of the book (I do not support any of the dsmp members expect for ranboo and schlatt cuz I like their videos and from what I know they're not problemat...
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I put it in my mouth and walked to sapnaps room, knowing he would awake. I walked in but didnt see him. I tilted my head like a confused puppy. he was normally still in bed at this time. I walked to the bathroom but the door was open and he wasnt there. I walked to the closet and still didnt find him. I walked outside to see if i had missed him. He wasnt anywhere outside. I started to panic.
TW: panic attack skip if you want!
My breathing sped up a bit. "Daddy?" I called out. i took out my paci. "daddy?!" i said running back into his room. "DADDY!?" I yelled looking around the house. "DADDY!" I started crying. I ran into my room and climbed onto my bed holding my knees to my chest. 'hes gone and isnt coming back.' 'he never loved you, he never wanted to be there for you. he just did it out of pity.' 'he hates you.' 'no one loves you' 'you dont deserve what you have.' 'why are you like this?' 'dream doesnt even like you.' 'jimmy doesnt like you, chris doesnt like you, chandler doesnt like you, no one likes you.' 'hes gone because you annoyed him to much.' 'you would cry and complain and now look what you did.' 'your a disappointment.' 'give up already.' I thought. I starting crying harder. "I sowwy..." I mumbled to myself. "I not goods enough..." My crying got louder.
I was hyperventilating at this point. I could breath. I felt like the room was spinning around me. i felt like throwing up but couldnt. the knot in my throat grew and grew the more I thought. my ears clogged. the thoughts got worst and louder. my heart raced. 'dream going to leave you too.' 'hes not going to say for your little pity party.' 'he doesnt care, why should he care.' 'no one cares.' 'your just another waste of space.' 'stop being so stupid all the time.' 'your useless.' 'your so loud and annoying, just shut up!' 'no one wants to hear your voice.' 'your crying isnt helping.' 'you deserve this.' 'no one cares what you do.' 'you shouldnt even be aloud to do anything because youll just mess it up and thank complain about it.' 'your a horrible person.' 'just stop.' the thoughts were the only thing i could think about.
now time for fluff b4 people cry-
I heard the door swing open and felt dreams arms wrap around me. I froze. "Hey bud, your safe. im here for you. your ok. I promise." He whispered in a calming tone. I hugged back crying into his shoulder. "Your protected here, you know that right?" dream asked. I nodded. "Good. I would never hurt or let anyone for that matter, hurt you." he said. "Whewe *hic* daddy?" i asked. "Hes in texas, remember." Dream said. "No..." I mumbled. "He didnt tell you, did he?" dream asked. I shook my head no. "He went to texas to visit people. he'll be back soon, i promise." Dream said. "How wong?" I asked. "Only a few days, a week at most." He said, rocking back and forth. "Dat to wong!" I said. "I know hun. but it'll go by so fast, you wont even notice it!" dream said. I sniffled a bit. "-And you get to spent lots of time with dede!" he continued. I shook my head no. "No? whats wrong? Why no?" he asked.
"No dede, dada.." I mumbled. he chuckled. "Am I dada now?" he asked. I nodded. ((Mans leveled up)) "Well we're going to have to tell daddy that I'm dada now." he said. "Nows?" I asked. "Do you want to now?" He asked. I nodded. "Ok." He said, letting go of me. He rang sapnap. "Hey pissbaby!" sapnap said. "Hey sap! guess what!" dream said. "whats up?" sap asked. "Im no longer dede!" He said. "...Is that good or bad..?" Sapnap asked. "Good! oh its great even! Im not dede anymore because im dada now!" He said. "No way! Thats great man! Thats such a level up for you!" Sapnap said. dream chuckled.
"I know right! I feel like a real caregiver now!" dream said. "You are a real caregiver bro! anyways I have to go- bye dream!" Sapnap said. "Bye sap! say bye bubby." dream said. "Byebye daddy!" i said. "Bye bugaboo! I love you!" sapnap said. I giggled. "I wuv 'ous too!" i said. Sapnap chuckled. "Alright, ill talk to you later. byeeee!" he said. "Bye!' dream said, and hung up. "You feel any better?" Dream asked. I nodded. "Fank 'ou dada.." I said, hugging him again. "Your welcome lovebug." he said, hugging back.
