You Live And Learn

26 | talks and transformations

"I was so happy that day," her voice breaks. "So, so happy when you asked me that. I remember thinking that it was one of the happiest days of my life. The sunset, the fireworks display, everything. It was perfect. You were perfect for me, Zo. And you still are."

She still has that pull over me with her words. I take a moment and stare at her. Even though she's borderline crying right now, it's still the girl I fell in love with. No doubt about it. I honestly don't know what to say.

"Please, Alonzo. Talk to me. I've been a nervous wreck ever since that night." She's full-out bawling her eyes out.

"I was supposed to make you better, but I broke you instead," her voice gives out mid-sentence. 

I wince at her words and feel a tug at my heartstrings. I look at the sky in hopes that it will guide me in dealing with this situation. All I get in return is the ultraviolet rays beaming onto my face. Looks like I won't get help from there. I return my gaze to my current ex. It feels crazy to call her that since I've been infatuated with her for more than a year. I sigh and start,

"Look at me, Camille." She raises her eyes to look at mine. "I'll be honest with you. Just last week, you were the love of my life. Probably still is. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. I wasn't prepared to see you today. I was scared, angry, and all the rest of these emotions. Yet, when I saw you, my heart still did a little dance." After hearing that, she gave me a small smile, just like how she used to.

"I don't know if you're truly sorry or not-"

"Yes, Alonzo, I am. From the bottom of my heart," she cuts me off. 

"Okay, sure. But I'm still angry at you. I'm still hurt from the entire thing. I just can't forget about it so soon. It's still fresh," I tell her, trying to keep my voice as even as possible. She does not cut me off this time.

"So many things I want to tell you, scream at you too, but I wasn't raised that way. I'm sure the guilt is killing you anyway, so I won't make it any worse."

"No, don't do that," she reaches out and puts her hand on top of mine. I don't have the strength to remove it. "I deserve it. Honestly, speak your mind." 

I sigh and say, "No, I won't do that. It's just not me to do that. But, I will ask you to do me a favor." 

"Yes, I will do anything for you. You know this." 

My anger flares up a bit, "That sounds like what you said to Mitchell when you broke up." She notices what she said and covers her mouth with her other hand. 

"I didn't realize, oh my gosh." 

"Whatever," I continue, "the favor is that we need space. Well, I need space at least. There are a million thoughts in my head, and I just need time to figure them out. I don't know how I feel about you right now. I need you to understand that."  

Camille nods her head.

"So, with that being said, I don't think we should see each other as of right now. Who knows what the future has in store for us? But as much as I don't want to admit it, I have to be alone."

She breathes a sigh of relief, "Honestly, that's way better than I thought was going to happen. But I get it, Zo. You need your time. I guess I need my time too as part of the punishment for messing up so bad." Camille pauses and takes a deep breath, "Just know though, if you ever need someone, no matter how small the problem is, call me. I will drop anything for you and help. Believe me on that. Just let me know."

She's giving me the Ice-Cami glare, so I know she's serious. I can't help but chuckle. "Okay, Camille, I'll take that into consideration." She flashes her perfect smile for the first time today, and it still has the pull on me since the first time I saw it. 

"Perfect, then." She gets up and picks up her bag. "I'm going home now since I look like trash. I'll tell Sophia to tell my teachers that I felt sick, but I feel so much better." Camille walks over and kisses me on the cheek. 

"Bye-bye, Zo. I'll see you soon," she winks at me and vanishes from my line of sight. 

Camille POV

Whew. I am glad that is over. His face at the end was priceless. He still has feelings for me, just like I do for him. He says he needs time.

Okay, I get that. 

All I know, when that 'time' is up, he's coming back to me. I will make sure of it.

It's time to get to work. I get into my car and drive off, heading home.

Alonzo POV'

And just like that, with a smile, she's gone. I hope I made the right choice. 

Well, I guess it doesn't matter anymore. 

I pick up my bag and start walking to the main school building. With her out the way, it's time to fully spring into action. 

It's time to get to work.

A/N: Well, things are about to spice up. Please consider voting, commenting, and sharing if you enjoyed the chapter. I'll see you at the next one.

~Antor