Ah shit here we go again

Authors Note

Huge trigger warning: This book takes on very serious issues with mental illness. The reader is not in a good mental state because of the things they've gone through in life that affect every thought and move they have. The reader will constantly joke about killing themselves and a whole other bunch of dark themes you should be warned about. Though some topics i guarantee you will be safe from are; Rape, underage relationships/pedophilia, and very specific jokes regarding more recent things like covid and whatnot will not be mentioned. Homophobia and transphobia will not be mentioned. It's just a widely accepted thing in this world.

Things that will probably be in this book are low body self-esteem. Dysphoria, dysmorphia, anxiety, lashing out. While this is a crackfic, problems like these are still very real, and I will take that seriously. SELF HARM WARNING AS WELL.

I'd also like to point out this is a huge vent book. When i first published it, i was not in a good headspace and sort of just threw my feelings into it. I am much better now but i really want to continue this book to sort of share how bad mental health can actually get and how you need people you can trust and that cares about you to get through it. I didn't handle this author's note when I first made this book. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. If you are struggling with anything, please contact your local suicide prevention number. Even though I don't know you or what you are going through, I love you, and I'm proud that you've come this far.

Some things I'd like to discuss about the reader that you'd want to know going into this, like the title said, this is a gender neutral reader. Pronouns used will be they/them so you can easily replace them with your own pronouns. I will try not to describe the readers' appearance much. I'm not going to focus on the romance aspect of this, at least for a while. I'm AroAce myself, and romance is a bit harder for me to write. I also think the reader wouldn't be ready for  a  relationship, at least for a couple year's because like I said, they're not in the right headspace. I don't want to romanticize mental illness. It's not just some cute aesthetic because that can get messy. I guess you could say it's a slow burn. I just really want to focus on how the reader developed those relationships and really heals with the help of the people they love(in a platonic way) . I'm rambling, but one last thing, if the reader gets annoying,  that's probably intentional. They’re not perfect. They’re human. So i don't wanna hear how 'you would never do that' this person is literally mentally ill dont be a bitch, also of course some of their actions aren't going to correspond with every action you would or wouldn’t make. It's different for everyone.

Thank you for giving this book a chance. I really appreciate it, especially if you've been here since i first posted it. Sorry it's taken two years to finally pick this back up.