Words From The Dark

uncaged

I am free of those bars
I am not caged anymore
My wings can fly once again

And it's all because of him

To be honest, I don't even think I like him enough to compare to my first love
But maybe it was a distraction nevertheless

Because now I can talk to my first love without feeling giddy
Without laughing aimlessly

Even if sometimes I still ponder over what we could have been

My years spent over him has come to an end and that one boy was the reason

He might only be a distraction to me
But I'm starting to get worried he likes me too much

I wonder you know

How a person can fall for me
Of all people
Me

And each passing day I realise how deep he has have fallen

I'm afraid to think that maybe it's like me and my First love
I hope it's not

I don't want him to get hurt like that
Maybe not hurt but something left behind

A piece of him still stuck and left behind on me

Just like my other part left behind of my first love

I won't hurt him as my first love did to me
But I can't think of any better way
I fear his affection is too much to bear

Am I leading him on because I'm selfish to believe that he won't want anyone other than me?

Is it selfish of me to wish for someone to love me like I loved him?

Will I become my First love to him?

I don't want to be
I don't want to pain him
I truly do care about him a lot

But...

After all,

Love brings many things but most of all, it brings pain.