•Taking control•

•Chapter Twenty Nine•

🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑
     (Talks about suicide)
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Alot was going through the blondes mind at the moment.
He had a lot of questions, and a lot of people were already asking him questions he didn't even know how to answer.

"What was the dream about this time?"
"How old do you think you are?"
"Do you remember us?"
"Do you remember what happened to Izuku!?"
"Are you hurting anywhere!?"
"Do you know where you are?"

"Will all of you just shut the hell up!?"

Bakugo ordered, his voice came out scratchy and raw.
You could tell he hadn't spoken in a long while.

His parents and his red headed friend, looked at one another.
His parents were sitting on the left closer to the window.
All while Kirishima was sitting on the right, holding his best friend's hand.
He hadn't expected the one time he showed up after so many weeks, Katsuki would actually awake.

"How did I get here?"

"Where is Izuku?"

"The league!"
"They have him!"

Everyone looked at one another, a sad expression plastered on their faces.
They hated this part the most, always having to explain to the blonde that his dear friend was indeed still dead.
And he has been for close to two year now.

Kirishima went ahead and decided to go ahead and be the one to break it to him this time.

"Bakugo, Mido.... he's dead. "

"W-What?"

"He had been for almost two years now. "

"Remember?"

"He pushed you out the way, and took the hit. "

"Oooh!"

"Haha, you guys actually has be scared for a moment!"

Katsuki laughed out, bringing his hand to his mouth, to cover up his relieved smile.
Little did he know.

"Ok, you guys are just confused."

"Remember it turned out the league kidnapped him, and held him hostage for almost a year?"

Katsuki rolled his eyes, being somewhat pissed at the fact that he had to repeat this.
When they needed to save Midoriya before it was to late.

The red head exhaled, as he whispered under his breath, 

"So that's the story this time. "

"Tch?"
"What the fuck do you mean!?"
"Story!?"
"It's not a story, your just being stu-"

"Katsuki."

The blonde's mom jumped in she looked more frazzled then usual.
But could you blame her?
Her only son was put into a mental hospital over a year and half ago for trying to take his own life.
After his childhood friend died, he was consumed with guilt refusing to eat or to go to school.
They barely got him out of bed on most day.
But Mituski was convinced, that it was just a phase, he'd eventually except what had happened he just needed some time to do so.
Sadly though after eight momths, and the blonde still, not showing progress he tried to slit his own wrist.
He parents were only lucky enough that they found him I'm time.
After the was revived, he had had habits of slipping into mini comas.
Where he would team of finding out Midoryia was alive one way or another, and they'd live this amazing life till one of them either dies or Bakugo wakes up. The doctors described it as his body trying to come up with a coping mechanism.
However for Mitsuki this was always the hardest part, you would think her son being in a coma so many times were.
But, at least she knew when Katsuki was sleep he was in peace.
However everytime he would awake she or her husband would have to give him the heart wrenching truth.
That his childhood friend was indeed still dead and he couldn't do anything about it.

"What hag?"
"You don't believe me either?!"

Katsuki felt angry.
Why wasn't anyone listening to him!?
His lover is in trouble and  everyone is acting like he was never alive!
Again!!

"Katsuki baby.... "
"I really, really wanna believe. "

"But the truth is, Izuku is dead and he's never coming back. "

Mitsuki voice was so frail, she hated always having to break her son's heart.
Over and over again.

"I'm sorry baby... "

"Wha-No!"

"Your fucking lying!!"

"Izuku's alive and he's probably being tortured or worst right now!!"

Bakugo yelled, doing his best to jump off the bed, but he was strapped down.
The nurses already knew what was gonna happen due to seeing it so often.

"I'm sorry bro.... but it's true. "

"He's been dead for two years, and you got sent here because you could wrap your head around it and guilt was eating you alive. "

"So.... Zuzu's really dead?"

Bakugo felt tears coming down his face, but he didn't have the energy to wipe them away.

He lost him again?
But then again..... he lost him a long time ago, even before his death.

"Please baby I need my son back."

"Please come back. "

Mitsuki cried, holding onto her son's hand for dare life.

Bakugo only turned the other cheek, how could he live in a world with out his reason for being alive?
Why did he have to lose Izuku before realizing just how much he loved him.

"I-I'll try mom. "

Lies.
He's not gonna try, he can't.
This was always gonna be how he lived out his endless days.
He sleeps for a little being able to make up a whole life with the greenette, only to be awoken back to reality.
It was pointless.
He'd rather sleep forever then be with out the freckled teen.

"C-Can I get some privacy?"
"Just for a moment, I need to think this all through. "

Katsuki lied, he had a plan but he needed everyone to leave, he couldn't handle anymore words spewing from his parents and close friend's mouth.
He needed to be alone, he needed time to think.

"Ok, baby. "

"Just call us back in when your ready. "

Bakugo only nodded his head in agreement, barely paying any attention now.
To lost in thought, about the freckled teen, his beautiful smile his freckled that made his emerald eyes just.... Pop!

Why was he so naive?
Why could he figure out his own feelings before the greenette had passed away.

He needed to see him again, he needed to at least apologize.