Coldest War (War Series #2)

Chapter 25

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Chapter 25

Wife

The months that have passed were a blur to me. I was s busy with my career and Hiel started to drift away. I don't exactly know why but something happened during those months. He rarely responded to my chats---na hindi pa madalas dahil abala ako sa pagmomodelo. At sa tuwing s'ya naman ang nagme-message sa 'kin, hindi ko rin madalas na ma-reply-an ang mga 'yon nang mabilis.  

Two hours delay on my replies turned to days---weeks---and eventually, I realized that we haven't messaged each other for a month. I can't even remember the last time we did a video call.

Huli ko na ngang nalaman na ikinasal pala ulit ang daddy n'ya---Tito Herman, Hiel's father. Kung hindi ko pa nakita ang pictures noong kasal na na-upload na ilang ligo matapos 'yon, baka hindi ko pa nalaman. 

Hiel's stepmother looks young. Siguro ay nasa early forties. Long curly hair, beautiful tan skin, and a nice wide smile---those were the first things I noticed about her. She looks very different from Tita Stella, Hiel's late mom. From what I saw from the pictures, Hiel looks fine. He looks like he likes his new mom too because when I asked her about it, he only said good words about her.

Hiel Sebastian Lara Cervantes:
She's good, Rinnah. 
She reminds me of you. She's friendly and always smiling.
Tita Evie brings her friends home so the house is livelier than before.

I was thinking that maybe Hiel's life has been good that he's been forgetting about me. Hindi ko magawang magtampo dahil. . . hindi ba, 'yon din naman ang gusto ko para sa kan'ya? Happiness and peace, remember? And I know that I also had my own faults. I became busy with the things I have been doing in my own life. 

It was meant for us to drift apart. We're growing. Tumatanda ako at tumatanda s'ya. He has issues in his own life and I also have mine. Siguro, dapat na makuntento na lang ako sa minsanan naming pag-uusap. After all, as his friend, when life is good for him, I should be happy. So I'm happy. I am happy for him. Kahit na wala ako ro'n at hindi ako parte ng sayang 'yon, masaya ako para sa kan'ya.

But at times, when I see a picture of him and Brylee together, I start to wonder if he found those in her---happiness and peace. Hindi ko magawang tanungin si Hiel kung sila na ba ni Brylee dahil pakiramdam ko, hindi ko gugustuhing malaman kung sila na nga. 

The feelings I have for him shouldn't be here in the first place. I think that it was the right thing to just let him love who he wants to love and find peace to where he wants to find it. 

Maybe, sometimes, people are just really meant to drift apart. Maybe not completely. But because they have their own lives, the bond they once created will eventually wear out. Hindi na tulad ng dati. Nando'n pa rin pero malaki na ang pagkakaiba. 

Isa 'yon sa mga bagay na masakit tanggapin pero kailangan---na may mga taong talagang ibinigay sa 'tin para turuan tayo pero hindi lahat, mananatili. Change is innevitable. People change. So do relationships. 

Hanani has rarely messaged me too. I heard that she and Adonijah are both studying at Clermont University. Si Jadon, sa pagkakaalam ko, ay sa St. Agatha University pa rin nag-aaral. Hindi na 'yon nakakapagtaka dahil anak s'ya ng chairwoman ng SAU. Asiel is studying Engineering at Acerra College of Aeronautics and Ida Mishal is studying arts at Soler College of Arts. 

When I came back after months of bland communications, I was finally a graduate from college and Hiel was in his sophomore year. Political Science at Torrero University---the school where we first went to and where Brylee also is studying. I tried to just overlook that detail. Ano ngayon kung parehas sila ng university?