"Please, just this once... tell me you love me."
Deep down we both knew it would only lead to pain... but we still got carried away. We risked everything even ourselves, it was getting destructive. Right then, I knew what we had to do, and that is t...
Winter stared at it for a moment, Yuna haven't said anything yet but she knew what and whose letter wrote it.
"She couldn't come. She said if she acquire the information of where you're going she's afraid she'll come and chase you." Yuna wiped the tears that streamed down her face as she sniffs harshly like her nose is gonna fall off.
Winter's lips quivered. She's thankful the shades are covering her eyes, they wouldn't see how hard she tries to hold back those tears.
She nodded her head and walked away. She knew once she speak she'll only breakdown. The lump on her throat was enough to burst out but she had a grip of herself.
"We'll contact each other okay?" Ningning hugged the two before she followed the older female
She waved at Ryujin and Yuna and they were both bawling their eyes out. Ningning was pleased. She's pleased that she told them before it's all too late.
........
Soon as they entered the plane Winter did not hesitate to open the letter and read it.
Ningning wanted to see it too but because it's not for her, she minded her own business.
Winter's hands were shaking as she opened the paper. The first thing that greeted her was a picture of them hugging each other.
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She burst into tears. She tried to remain calm and it took her a few minutes before she started reading it.
"I'm writing this in hoping that it would lessen the pain I'm feeling right now. Winter, if you're never going to talk to me again, that's okay. I know you promised you would never leave me five months ago while I was crying into your chest, but I also know that sometimes it snows in the middle of April or weeds grow in the middle of a rose garden, so I understand that things happen that aren't supposed to. It's so hard to say it but I guess it's time to let you go. Everything we had and everything we didn't have is slowly dying. I just want to let you know that I never wanted to let you go and I still love you. I guess not every love story can be happy. I don't know what our future holds but maybe someday we will meet again when the time is right. And maybe I will tell you how much you mean to me.
I decided I have to forget, I have to wash the taste of your name off my tounge, and scrub your fingerprints off my skin. I have to wipe the memories of us all around this apartment from my mind. But know that while doing this, my heart hurts. You need to understand that I do care and that I always will, that this is not what I wanted but I'll do it because I have to. I would have loved you forever.
Even after everything, I'm in love with you. I still love you every second of everyday and miss you beyond words. I miss feeling you close to me and looking at you. But the thing is no matter how much I do love you, I have to love myself more. I do have to get over you and let you go no matter how hard it is. I want to fall in love again, and I will. I will love my own life. I will love it unconditionally and without fear. I will love it eventhough it's without you. SImply, I will love it the way I loved you.
There is no one else I'd rather have by my side in the rain, the hall or the sunshine than you. There may be billions of women in the universe, but none will ever shine brighther than you. Like the North Star, you'll guide my heart throughout life no matter where I am. When the night skies are filled with darkness, you will shine through to give me hope. Thank you for giving yourself to me in the purest sense. Thank you for showing me what love was meant to be. Maybe someday our stars will align again. Growing apart doesn't change the fact that for a long time we grew side by side; our roots will always be tangled. I'm glad for that. I don't like saying goodbye so let's just say see you soon.
I love you always, and I'm sorry.
- from the last letter I ever wrote you "
Tears welled up in her eyes. Winter looked outside the window of the plane.
Why did she let Karina in her life? Maybe it's the fact that they're from different worlds and she wants to see what would happen if they were to cross. Maybe it's the memory of sitting alone, just like she was, and wishing for someone to come.
She's deeply hurt, and her heart will undoubtedly be scarred because they can't be together.
Winter don't think she'll ever find a love as true as theirs, and she's not sure if she ever want to try again.
She shut her eyes and smiled bitterly as NIngning slowly hugged her head for comfort.
"You will be fine."
Winter had never cried so hard for the past 21 years of her life. But she did. She cried like a baby in Ningning's arms. Because the pain is unbearable and she don't know until when would she hold it all in.
