I'M TRYING BUT I DON'T THINK I'LL MAKE IT

The Plot (First Entry)

22nd October 2021

Things have been pretty weird lately. Someone has been leaving these weird diaries on my desk in my bedroom, on mornings. This has happened quite a few times, maybe someone needs help or maybe just trying to mess with me. Well, ngl they're kinda interesting to read. But they're also super weird at the same time like this one, it belonged to some dude named Nemo and it's all just weird stuff and also there are no dates in the entries, they're just there, random entries on random pages. Another one was also super weird it belonged to this girl named Cece, the diary had a lot of entries, but they were all written from the last page to the first page of the diary. sometimes there are just notes, just a single diary entry, sometimes there is a name in them like Aurthur or something and other times there's no name. Idk maybe someone's just messing with me I guess, but why is that someone doing this to me? I need to figure it out.

Things haven't been going great, maybe that's why I started keeping this diary, in case I ever go insane in future. I'm ruining relationships with everyone I'm close to, I'm fighting with them, I've been saying mean things to them, I fought with my girlfriend last night for no good reason, I don't feel good after doing that to her, why did I do that? I was mean to my brother, I was mean to my mom, I'm a really bad person. Why do I think that everyone's always lying to me? why do I think that everyone's ignoring me? Maybe I'm a Narcissist? But idk it's variable. Sometimes I just don't want people to text me, sometimes I'm desperate, sometimes I don't give a fuck, sometimes I do give a fuck. And why do I regret my actions? I think I just need some time, but time is relative and I'm extremely fast.

~The Protagonist