Next day:
I was standing outside my classroom, i saw Ayaan coming my way. I was about to walk away, i guess he realized "Natasha wait!" He yelled coming my way. I stopped and turned to him. "Are you free after college today" He asked me.
I didn't have a shift at cafe today as i did overtime few days back. "Yes, why?".
" can we meet up?" He asked hurriedly.
" why?"i asked in a bored tone.
" i have something to talk about".
" you still have something to talk about?. I told you yesterday to make sure you talk about everything then" i told him.
"This will be the last time" he told me in very low voice.
I was out of words, i disliked what i just heard but didn't show" ohh..okay then". "Time and place?" I asked him dryly.
He looked hurt by my reply and didn't even try to hide " the park outside your apartment at 6 in the evening" he told me and i nodded.
"Okay then.. i should go now" he said and walked away.
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I was reading a book when my phone started ringing. I picked up, it was Ayaan calling.
"Hello?" I said
"Hello, are you not coming?" He sounded anxious.
" I'm coming wait" i said and hanged up.
I wore my shoes. Locked the door and head to the park.
He was standing near a bench, wearing grey colour Chinese collar shirt with black jeans. I went and stand behind him. I coughed making my presence known.
He turned his face to me.
He was looking at me, " i thought you wouldn't come" he said.
" and why would you think like that?" I asked him sitting on the bench.
" i couldn't find you when i came here" he answered
I looked at him "why would i wait out here for you? I have got work to do, unlike someone" i said. I just can't keep my mouth shut for once, can i? I have to say something rude everytime i get a chance.
He didn't say anything in reply.
" now come to business, what did you wanted to talk about?" I asked him.
"Can you forgive me?" He asked
" maybe yes maybe not" i replied.
" i came to tell you that i am leaving"
"Where to?"
" usa"
I nodded
" you don't have anything to say"
" if you are expecting for me to say 'oh please don't go.. ' or ' haww...I'll miss you' anything like that then NO! i don't have anything to say."
He didn't say anything.
" have you said everything you wanted to?" I saked
" yes.. i guess"
" I won't listen to anything again then
.. if there is anything still left just say already"
He kept looking at me. His pained expression was making me feel guilty.
" I'll be going then" i stood up a started walking away.
There was a piece of my heart wishing for him to stop me.
But he didn't.. and i was too coward to look back at him.
I entered my apartment and sat on.the couch.
Our conversation was going through my head.
Everytime i am almost done getting him out of my mind every single time he finds a way back to my mind and heart.
Next day-
I woke up early today even though it was sunday because abbu has arranged a meeting for both me and his friend's son. I started getting ready for it, i decided to wear a long cream shirt on blue jeans and beige hijab. I wore nude heels.
As i was going to see the man i will maybe get married to so i decided to put on a little make up.
I gave a final look to me in the mirror.
I was looking beyond stunning,
"Mashallah!" I whispered, now i was having second thought about going there, i just want to drag a chair and sit infront of the mirror for the whole day and look at myself.
But i can't do that. I get into cab.
I reached after a ride of 1:30 hours. I reached earlier than i had expected due to less traffic.
" assalamualaikum ammi abbu" i greeted, they were sitting in the lounge.
"Walekum assalam" they replied.
" you reached earlier than expected" ammi exclaimed.
" i know right. There was less traffic" i told her.
" my child..come sit here" abbu called me to sit beside him.
I went and sat beside him.
" how are you?" I asked about him.
"I'm good as always" he said with a smile.
I scaned the room till where i can see" where is zara?" I asked them.
Ammi yelled from the kitchen" she must be in her room". " i would go meet her" i stood up from the sofa and went upstairs.
I knocked at her door.
"Appi?!" She exclaimed in surprise opening the door.
I moved away instantly.
She glared at me "i won't jump.. i got too excited that time". Wait why does no one tell here I'm coming over?
"Yeah but i can't take risk. What if you jump on me again and i fall and couldn't walk. What was that guy's name?"i keep forgetting his name.
"Umar" she said giving me the worst possible look. "Yeah that, what if umar's family think i have some problem in my legs and reject me?" I told her.
I seemed so uninterested "would be better" she whispered under her breath going back and laying on her bed.
" what happened to you now?"
" nothing..just tired"
" it's 1 pm right now, tired already?" I asked her.
" beta ab to hum buddhe ho rahe hai... jodo me dard rehta hai seedheyan chadha utra nahi jata.. jhukha nahi jata" she started acting like a grandma. " sahi keh rahi ho baaji..mere sath bhi yahi dikkat hai..ab to zindagi ka koi bharosa nahi" i joined her but her acting was better than mine..
We both bursted into laughter. Her voice was almost same like an elder woman's shaky and slow voice.
