Out Of Time

My Light

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We took him to the nearby hospital and he was admitted and was immediately taken to the operation ward.

...

After waiting for a while which felt like forever, the doctor came out of the ward and we got up from our seats to ask about his situation.

"Doctor?" Tala and I asked

"The bullet went straight through his chest and on top of that he had lost a lot of blood"

"Get to the point" Tala screamed

"Please Doctor.... How critical is his condition?" I asked

"I'm sorry but you guys were too late. He's running 'Out Of Time'. He might have a few minutes left"

I stood there speechless for about a minute. I was too shocked to speak or cry. Tala hugged me and started crying.

No this can't be right. This is not happening. This isn't true please. There are so many things that I have to tell him. He can't go! Not like this!

I rushed into the ward but on the heart rate monitor there was a just straight line. I was late..... I just dropped on the floor and cried like a crazy little baby.

Tala came in and tried to comfort me. The doctors came in and we had to leave the ward. I asked Mahesh to take care of the rest and went straight to the apartment I was living in. Before leaving Mahesh just said one thing to me,"Don't blame yourself okay?! It's not your fault". I nodded and left.

How can I not blame myself?! This is clearly my fault. That bullet was for me. I should be the dead one not him.

It's all my fault! I couldn't protect him. I didn't even answered to his confession, I'm such a horrible person.

[After A Week]

Today is his funeral. They're were a few people including me, Tala, his five friends from Japan. We all prepared speeches in his honor.

First Tala came,"Really not in the mood so I'm gonna keep it short. Thanks man for being there for me in those traumatic days. Thanks for sharing the burden. Thanks for....existing. Your presence was the warmest ray that had ever touched me. Love You man! You've been through a lot since your childhood, now I guess you're free from those shackles so Rest In Peace my friend"

When it was my turn, I said,"Once I told him that I can't be selfish and stay with him forever because I have people to save and bad guys to arrest. But I was wrong, I was selfish. He loved me selflessly inspite of knowing that I might never say yes to his feelings. And I wasn't brave enough to say yes as well inspite of what I feel. Every time I buried them deep down, because I was afraid that the mission would go wrong but I had never thoughts for a second, how was he feeling, how much my silence was hurting him........

I LOVE YOU KAI!! You hear me?!

If only I've had said this before. I really can't thank you enough for the time we had together, all the times where you were there for me when no one was. Thank you for granting me the chance to live. I promise to live until we reunite once again. Wait for me. Will you?"

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After burying him, we all went our separate ways. I was riding the Softail. The road was wonderfully quiet. Barely any vehicles were passing by.

The mission was successful but I had to pay a huge price. Maybe I'll be praised for the success but was it really a success? We couldn't save him. Moreover the funny thing is that, I have lost so much in my life still it hurts like hell.

But this is life, uncertain, unfair and sometimes the hurdles are so rough that you might wanna give up but then comes that someone, a light who helps and encourages you and give you warmth and support to overcome that hardle. But when you look back at it, it may seem that it was the easiest hurdle of your life. More rough ones lie ahead but that someone might not be there to help you anymore, maybe that light has faded away but his encouraging words, that warmth will help you to march forward in life.

Kai was that someone in my life, that light, My Light! Not only he, my mom, my dad, they might not be here today but their blessings are.

Kai granted me a life. I promise you to cherish it forever. I'll meet you again someday, wait for me.

My thoughts were interrupted by a phone call from General.

"Yes sir?"

"Major come back to base at once! You're next mission awaits"

"On it sir! Jai Hind!"

"Jai Hind!"

The road was too quiet so I put my headphones on and pressed the shuffle play button on my Spotify liked songs.

Kabhi Tumhe was playing-

Tum Agar Manaoge Toh Maan Jaunga
(If only you’d convince me, I’ll be convinced)

Main Tere Bulane Pe Laut Aaunga
(If you call, I’ll be back by your side at once)

Har Safar Mein Sath Tera
(In every journey of life)

Main Yun Hi Nibhaunga
(I would accompany you like this)

Kabhi Tumhhe Yaad Meri Aaye
(If you ever miss me)

Palkon Se Zulf Hata Lena
(Just open your eyes and see)

Saaf Dikhunga Main Tumko Wahin
(You’ll find me right before you)

Jo Na Dikhun Toh Bata Dena
(And if not then let me know)

Kabhi Mujhe Der Jo Ho Jaaye
(If ever I am late)

Wakt Ko Thoda Bacha Lena
(Just save some time for me)

Phir Se Milunga Main Tumko Wahin
(You’ll find me where we left)

Jo Na Milun Toh Saza Dena
(And if not then punish me)

Meri Zameen Ko Tere Kadam Ka
Na Jaane Kab Se Tha Intezaar
(My eyes have been waiting for your footsteps, for long enough)

Ek Na Ek Din Aana Hai Tumko
Dil Ko Mere Hai Yeh Aitbaar
(One day you would come back, my heart believes it)

Main Khuda Se Tere Siwa, Kuch Aur Na Magunga
(I would never ask anything from God, but you)

Kabhi Tumhe Yaad Meri Aaye
Itni Si Baat Samajh Jaana
(If you ever miss me, just know it in your heart)

Phir Se Milunga Main Tumko Wahin
Raah Se Meri Guzar Jaana
(You’ll find me where we left, so come by my way)

THE END