My Love

chapter 4

"What did he do?"

"Okay , mid conversation he was describing me saying how I can be nice then mood changing right ?" I said causing her nodding for me to continue "So I slipped up saying there's more you don't know about one right debating on telling him and mid of him asking what I meant, he's checking his phone"

"Mmcht please do not tell me that's why you didn't tell him?? Girl I check my phone all the damn time while you talking Aara that's so childi-

"A half naked girl in a bed picture with a message asking where was he at was on his screen" I finished seeing her face very much appalled and shocked as I lowkey got upset all over again

"You actually seen that?" Ciana asked and I nodded "I'm going to kill him" She said getting up grabbing her phone and other things

I dropped my bowl on the table rushing to her grabbing her "No Ciana you can't"

"Because we aren't together and he doesn't even know the situation it would be wrong" I said as she stared at me nodding coming back to the couch

"I forgot about that.... Does it upsets you at all?? That's mad disrespectful for any women I don't care" She said making her point

It did upset me , maybe because I couldn't get him out of my mind since that night and he was the most amazing man Ive ever met in one night compared to men I've met in my life , it was disrespectful for that because what if that's his girlfriend? I could be breaking up a happy home for all I know

"Oh my God ... I'm a home wrecker" I said getting upset

"No no no , we will not say that. We don't know for sure if that's his girlfriend or a sneaky link he fucks every now and then" She said to me which didn't make it no better

"I'm pregnant by him and he doesn't even know and there's a possibility I'm hurting a girl he messes with , God this is so wrong"

I'm never this sensitive, it's too early for me to even have this type of emotional hormones right ?

"What's going on with you Aara? ? You are never this sensitive and emotional.." She said eyeing me down as I shrugged

"I don't know, I've never been in this situation before and I think this baby making me emotional isn't it too early for that" I frustratedly expressed myself huffing in the process

"God if this baby makes you sensitive and emotional like this I don't want to ever get pregnant" She said as I looked her eye damn near wanting to kill her for saying that as she held her hands up in surrender

"Okay I'm sorry I'm sorry!"

"I don't know though forreal Ciana .. I'm pregnant and this man still doesn't even know and I had the opportunity what if I don't see him again?"

"Aara please stop acting slow, I talk to the nigga bestfriend there's definitely a chance you will see him again. You just need to tell the damn man, him being in a relationship or not. I understand I'd have to be in your situation to understand but you cannot let this shit go on any further you know that right?" She said as I nodded my head

I knew I couldn't let this go any further and she was right as I sighed stuffing my face with more ice cream

"You know what how about a girls night? I think we both could use one" She said as I turned to her smiling a bit

"Since you can't drink at the moment , we can finish the ice cream and make some brownies and watch the notebook"

"See now you're speaking my language" I said smiling

"Oh my God" I said crying eating my popcorn

"He read to her their love story every damn day until they died, how is this not fucking sweet" Ciana said crying also as we watched the end of the notebook where they were laid in bed at rest

"God I need a man like Noah" I said as we turned the tv off "He wrote this women 365 letters and they ask why I have high standards??"

"Allie was ungrateful I don't care" Ciana said as I turned to her "Cause see me??? I would've stepped behind Noah"

"How was Allie ungrateful??" I said looking at her

"Allie ass should've tried harder cause for Noah??? I would've stayed I don't care" Ciana said shaking her head

"I don't think she ungrateful, she was young and her parents sent her away. And it was their fault anyways and let's not forget Noah wanted better for her they made him feel like he wasn't enough " I said remembering how her father and mother treated him and manipulated him

"You know what you right, them bitches ain't give her them letters either never mind" She said as I nodded "Bitch I would've killed to be in Allie place. This man damn near killed himself on the fucking farris wheel for her and all"

"I think we all need some Noah's in our lives" I said

"Hell I got a Tay"

"And that's my cue" I said getting up knowing this gone be a long conversation about her and her boo