Road to Nowhere

One Wish

I feel abused, worthless and rejected. Like I am nothing. Like I don't matter. And nothing I do will change that. I honestly don't know what I can do. I am always disappointing someone, always being the burden. Always being the problem. It is always my fault. Its my fault I'm a disappointment. Its my fault I get bullied, its all my fault. I'm useless because I can never get anything right! I always ruin things!
I feel the tears sting in my eyes, followed by the warm tears that slowly fall down my cheek and onto my pillow. Before I know it the tears are streaming down my face and no matter how hard I try the tears keep coming. I feel weak because I cant be strong. I cry some more. I feel like a loser because I'm not like everyone else. I feel like no one cares about me and no one wants to help me. I turn and scream into my pillow. But no matter how loud I scream no one hears me. How much I cry, no one sees me. Or how much I ask for help, no one cares. I'm never worth it and I never will be.