Dancing in the dark

Alone again

Hey everyone so are we feeling Team Chase or Team Jake??

To say the next few days were hard is a BIG understatement. Chase drove me home the day I got discharged, which was just after my OBGYN appointment. I was devastated that Jake wasn’t there for it, we found out I was almost 2months pregnant and I was so happy. 

Dad became worried about me. After Chase dropped me home I just locked myself in my room only coming out to eat, I hardly spoke to anyone. I still had heard no word from Jake no matter how many texts i sent and I was getting scared. Chase and Kelly visited and talked to me but I just kind of listened.

2 days later Dad was scheduled to leave for London “Becky I can push this back your more important right now” I smiled and shook my head “No daddy im fine, me and Jake will work it out and I have my friends, don’t let me hold you back im ok really im going to go to school on Monday I promise there's only a month left”.  Dad smiled and gave me a big hug and kiss “I love you so much baby girl I want to hear from you once a week and when you start getting pictures I want to see my little grand baby” I chuckled and pushed him out the door. He put his entire luggage in the jeep and came and gave me one more hug “I’ll ring the second I land, unless it’s too late then I’ll just send you a text”. I waved to him as he drove down the street. Once again I was all alone, I made it inside before I burst into tears. I slid down the front door and just cried my heart out for 10 minutes. I finally decided on having someone over.

“Hey it’s me, dad just left…no im ok…..but I would really like some company” I waited for the other persons reply.

“Of course Becca I’ll be there in 5” I smiled and felt a lot better.

“Thanks Chase”.

 True to his word he arrived 5 minutes later with a shopping bag over flowing with food, I smiled and tried to look inside “Nah ah little Miss you can just wait it’s a bag of surprises” I chuckled and he headed into the Kitchen. Chase had been amazing since Jake disappeared, true to his word he was my super bestie. He put up with my weird cravings I requested like: Marshmallow’s, chocolate and mangoes together, or my constant want for fairy bread, dad and Chase used to stare at me while I ate all these weird foods mixed together.

“Ok Becca tonight we have ben and jerry’s chocolate cookie ice cream with Jelly, sprinkles, hot fudge and extra Oreos” I gasped and jumped up and down excitedly, that was my fave dessert that Chase had learned because I couldn’t decide which 2 I wanted a few nights ago, so we shoved everything in and it was yummy. “Chase what would I do without your yummy treats” I jumped up on the bench and gave him a kiss on the cheek. “Well im pretty sure you would be a lot healthier” he chuckled. “Hey Mr I eat well, anyways its just dessert I have whatever I want”.

We made our way to the lounge room and Chase looked through the DVDs “OK what are you in the mood for?” I grinned over at him and Chase looked scared “The Lucky One” Chase groaned “Come on Becca we have watched that movie 6 times this week, for the love of god I can’t look at Zac Effron again” I chuckled evilly and shook my head “Put it in Chase ppppleaseeeee” he rolled his eyes and put the DVD in, muttering as he came and sat next to me “Thanks Chase” I beamed up at him.

Half way through the movie I didn’t even realise I was crying, I was so emotional these days. Chased hugged me tight and wiped my eyes “Hey your ok Becca” I cried harder and held onto Chase tight.

“Where is he Chase, I need him” Chase kissed my head and held my hand as he hugged me. “I don’t know Becca, but I will find him, he will be back he just needs time”. I wiped my face and sat up “I know he needs time I do, but this, you just don’t do this leaving your pregnant girlfriend with no word, no note, nothing, where the hell is he” I shouted.

I grabbed my phone and rang Jake again, leaving the millionth message this week “Damn it Jake answer me at least tell me you’re ok” I hung up and threw my phone to the lounge.

“Look Chase thanks for coming round but im really tired, im gonna try get some sleep, come round tomorrow?” Chase nodded and gave me a quick hug before leaving. I dragged my ass upstairs and hit the shower. I got in my panties and one of Jake’s shirts and laid in bed for over 2 hours just staring at my phone. I dial Jake again and it goes to message bank yet again “Damn it Jake I can’t do this, if you don’t ring me in the next hour we’re done, you hear me Jake just call please”.

I fell asleep with tears pouring down my face, I had waited 3 hours after leaving the last message, and I was done. I promised myself from that moment I wouldn’t waste another tear on Jake Scott.