𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑•𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨

ᴊᴇᴀʟᴏᴜꜱʏ

Warnings: self harm, language (if you're uncomfortable with this, your welcome to skip this imagine)
Recommendations: dark mode

𝘼𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚: if anyone ever feels like this, remember your beautiful and ily

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I wake up to the sun rays shining on my face. I turn to look at vinnie. Gosh, he's so perfect. I will never understand why he wants me tho. I'm not as pretty as the girls on Instagram, I'm not as slim as them either. I start to tear up as the thought runs through my head. Vinnie starts to wake up, he must've heard me crying. I quickly wipe my tears before vinnie sees me.

"Morning" he says in a raspy voice. "Morning " I said back with a light smile. Vinnie snakes his arms around my waist before asking." Are you okay babe?" "Yea why?" I replied with a fake smile " I can tell when somethings wrong y/n, plus your eyes are puffy! Were you crying?" He asked worried. "Yea, but It was nothing serious" "You sure" he asked still concerned. "Promise" I say kissing his lips.

I finish doing my morning routine, and decide to go down for breakfast. I eat some cereal and scroll through Instagram. As I go through Instagram, I see girls on my feed skinny, short, 𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩. Jealousy for fills me as I look at all the pictures.

"𝙄 𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙖 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙮 𝙥𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙢 '𝘾𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙄 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡𝙨 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙚"

More and more thoughts flow across my mind.

"𝙅𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙮, 𝙟𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙮"

I start to tear up as the thoughts build up In my
head.

"𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙄'𝙙 𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙚, 𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙚
𝘼𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚, 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙚𝙡𝙨𝙚"

I can't take it no more. I run into the bathroom and burst into tears. I slide across the wall as the words repeat in my head

"𝙃𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙞𝙚𝙧, 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙚𝙧, 𝙟𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙮, 𝙟𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙮"

The words get louder and louder. I pull at my hair. I wanna scream, but I don't want vinnie to hear me. So instead I get up and grab a razor blade. I start to slit my wrist, as I cry my eyes out.

I sit back down and cry.

"𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙗𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙤 𝙗𝙖𝙙, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙮𝙤𝙪"

I screamed . I didn't even realize it, it kinda just happened. Tears burn down my eyes as I feel like living shit.

"Y/n?" Vinnie says going down stairs. "Y/n where are you" he says worried. "Y/n I heard you scream where the hell are you?" He says panicking. He stops tho, when he hears the light sobs coming from the bathroom. He opens the door and walks inside.

He slides next to me, and pulls me into a hug. We stay like that for a few minutes in silence. Until he decides to break it. "What's wrong babe?" he says moving my hair out my face. "Wh-why do you li-like me" I stutter out. "Wdym, why do I like you?" He asked with a raised eyebrow. He looks around and spots my phone by the sink. He picks it up and looks at the pictures.

"Y/n" he says lifting my chin up to look at him. "I love you for you y/n, your beautiful the way you are." He says kissing my forehead. "You shouldn't have to feel like your less Bc of these girls. I love you for you and always will." "But vin your so perfect!" I say sniffing. "Babe I'm not perfect, nobody is. We're all different in our own ways" he says rubbing my back. "But the other girls are way pre" he cuts me off. "Y/n you are the most beautiful, smart, loving person I ever met! Your so amazing, I'll never forget how lucky I am to have you, I love you." I sit there in shock, trying to process what vinnie just said. "I love you too" I muffle in his chest. "How about we get you cleaned up, and cuddle. We can eat snacks and watch anime all day!" He says smiling. "Yea" i say giggling. Vinnie gives me a fresh hoodie, while I remove the old one. "Y/n" he says in shock. "Hm?" I say confused. "You cutted, I'm sorry I wasn't here" he says guilty. "It's okay it's not your fault" I say looking down. "Y/n just promise me you won't do it again, and tell me next time when you feel like you have to, Bc I'm here for you, Always." He says kissing my lips.

Vinnie helped me get cleaned up, and bandage my scars. Then we ate our favorite food and snacks as we cuddled with Hera, watching anime. "I love you" vinnie said kissing my forehead.
"I love you too" I say drifting to sleep.

The end!

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Niya speaks!
Ik this imagine was long lmaoo
But if any of you guys need me remember I'm here for you!
And request are open! I would love to hear all of your ideas:D
Also sorry for spelling errors!!
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