Icarus

36. A Rock & A Hard Place

Tell me something, I need to know
Then take my breath and never let it go
If you just let me invade your space
I'll take the pleasure, take it with the pain
And if in the moment I bite my lip
Baby, in that moment, you'll know this
Is something bigger than us and beyond bliss
Give me a reason to believe it
'Cause if you want to keep me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder
And if you really need me, you gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder
~Love Me Harder by Ariana Grande

Lina's POV
I wake up really early this morning to make phở. It takes a long time to cook.
I prepare their lunches while the phở is slowly cooking. When I have to leave to bring the guys their lunches I turn off the stove.

I get back home after bringing Damon his lunch. I change out of my clothes and into a casual dress.  I turn the stove back on low to cook the phở. I clean up a bit, then start prepare dinner for when they get home.

I have on the butt plug from two days ago.  Damon put in a larger one yesterday, so moving feels uncomfortable. I bear with it though.

When they arrive home, I prepare each of us a bowl of phở. It tastes so good. I'm biased, but my favorite genre of food is Vietnamese food. I'm just used to it.

We eat in silence.
"How is it?"  I ask
"It's great." They say
I look at them both. They seem to be bothered by something.
"Is there something wrong?" I ask
They don't look at me. They're staring  at each other with piercing eyes.
"Nothing is wrong."Derek replies
"Just fine." Damon grits
I can see that something is clearly wrong. Maybe something happened at work that made them irritated. I know how to fix that.

I get up, walk over to them and take their hands and leads them to the bed. I position myself between them. I kiss Derek first then I turn around and kiss Damon. Derek turns me back around forcefully and kisses me fiercely with fire in his eyes. Damon then grabs my arms and turns me around breaking my kiss with Derek and smashes his lips into mine. Wow! This is hot! I feel their erection and I grab them through their pants. They let out a growl.

They take off their clothes and then takes off my dress. Yes! I grab their cocks and I stroke them both hard and fast. "Fuck!" They both exclaim putting their head back. I drop down and put one in my mouth and suck on it. I look up at Damon and he is staring at his brother. Then I turned around to do the same with Derek and the same expression is on his face.  Perplexing.

They pull me back up and direct me to the bed. Derek lays on the bed and I get on top. I put his cock inside me I moan as his girth stretch me out. I ride him thoroughly.
You feel so good Derek.

Damon comes up behind me and pushes at my back down. My head lays onto Derek's chest, showing Damon my ass. I turn my head to look at him still riding Derek. He leans over and kisses both of my shoulder blades where my constellation tattoos are at. He kisses my lips after. He makes his way down and kiss  both of the large scars  on my back. I groan. Those scars brought so much painful memories of my gymnastics injury and those men violating me; but Damon makes it all better.

He puts on a condom, gets a bottle of lube put it on himself. Then takes out the butt plug. "Ah!" I whimper. He applies lube to my ass hole and then he put his cock in slowly. "Ahh!" I cry out
"Fuck!"
I scream out still looking at his face as he pushes in deeper.

He  thrusts into me slowly at first, then pick up the pace. Fuck, it hurts but it feels so damn good at the same time. It feels amazing to have them both buried deep inside me. Derek turns my head around to face him and he kisses me hard and thrusts into me harder. Shit! This is a new side I'm seeing in Derek. He's usually very loving and gentle. They're both pounding into me. "Yes, yes, yes!" Sex is so much fun.
"vær så snill, ta meg med til Valhalla." I moan
(please, take me to Valhalla)

They both thrust harder and harder, faster and faster, I scream with every thrust. I climax all over Dereks's cock. I put my head on his shoulder feeling limp.

"Ah, ah, ah" They're not finished yet. They are still trusting. Still going and going. Derek grunts and drenches my vagina with his seed. "Derek." I moan out his name.
He release his cock from me. His semen seeping out of me while Damon holding my hips is still in my ass pounding. He removes his cock, takes off the condom fast and rams it hard into my vagina.

"AHHHH!!! I scream out. He trusts into me so hard. The hardest I ever felt.   The piercings hitting my walls. Fuck.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck!"
He put his hand on my sternum lifting me up on my feet so my back is touching his chest, holding me there as he thrusts into me. This angle, my god it hits differently. Harder and harder.

I put my arms around his neck, turn my face  and kiss him. 
"Tell ...me...you...love ...me." Damon groans in between rough kisses and thrusting.
"I.... I.... Love..."
Derek comes pulls my head to face him, breaking my kiss from Damon and put his lips on mine harshly. Not letting me finish my confession.

"AHHH!" I scream loud as my body convulses, my eyes roll to the back of my head like I am having a seizure. I cum and squirt all over. I didn't know I could do that.

He makes a loud grunt and he climaxes into me. "Fuck!" He still thrusting into me inserting  all his semen deep into my womb. Damon removes himself from me and lays me down. Laying there breathing  shallow breaths as I come down from my high. My heart beating a mile a minute.

They're still standing up staring at each other with intense rage.
What is wrong? I thought this would make you guys feel better.
Derek punches Damon in the jaw then Damon punches Derek.
They're fighting. "STOP IT! BABES!" I get in between them again and push them apart.  They push me away. "Stay out of this Lina!" They yell me.

"WHY? WHY BROTHER? WHY ARE WITH HER WITHOUT ME PRESENT?" Derek yells and punches.

"WHY ME? WHY YOU? WHY ARE WITH HER WITHOUT ME?" He punches back.

"WHY IS IT THAT YOU ALWAYS GET THE GIRL?"Damon yells

"ME? THE GIRL ALWAYS WANTS YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE THE BETTER LOVER!" Derek shouts back

"THEY COME TO ME TO GET FUCKED HARD BUT ENDS UP WANTING TO BE WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE GENTLE AND KIND. 'BOYFRIEND MATERIAL'. Damon claps back

They raise their fists again getting getting ready to punch. I get in between them before they do. They stop so they don't accidentally hit me. They both get into each other's faces eyes wide and nose flaring  like bulls.
"I SAID STOP!" I yell at them, tears beginning to form in my eyes. "Please." I cry

I turn around, run to the bathroom and slide down on the door to the floor.
The day I feared has come to pass. I'm the problem. I was always the problem. I am the root to your pain and misery.
I caused you both to be this way. I broke you apart. I ruined your bond with each other. You are fighting because of me. Fighting over me. Fighting for me.
They want me to choose one. It's just like the characters in my book. I had already predicted this.  Michael and Lucifer fell in love with Lexi. They wanted her to choose.
That's as far as I got. I haven't written the next book yet. I have writer's block. I don't know how this will end.
I cry. I cry so much, that I cry myself to sleep, naked on the bathroom floor.