Amor Fati Series #1: Chasing Thy Fate

04

I woke up with a lighter feeling. Ginawa ko na 'yong morning routine ko. Fixed my bed, took a bathe and done brushing my teeth.

It's already 8 in the morning and I'm not expecting my brother to be downstairs anymore.

I decided to eat first before opening my messenger and copy the note Leo sent me last night. Habang pababa ako sa hagdan namin, may naamoy akong pamilyar na putahe.

Tinolang manok?

I thought pumasok na si Kuya sa school? Umabsent siya?

Dali-dali akong pumasok sa kusina expecting kuya Nyx cooking my favorite dish only to find out that it was my mom.

Nang maramdaman niyang nasa hamba ako ng pintuan ay nilingon niya ako. She smiled softly with me, I saw the longing in her eyes while looking at me.

The look that I have been waiting for since Dad left us.

She offered me a hug which I totally obliged. Tinakbo ko 'yong pagitan namin at niyakap siya nang napakahigpit.

"I missed you ma." I muttered feeling her arms hugging around me.

I badly want to tell her everything. Everything that has happened in my life. How I deal with my first period, how I ran for the position of grade 9 representative and how I accomplished those small achievements.

She rarely got out of her room, I just know she missed a lot. Unless kuya Nyx told her some things I didn't know.

"I missed you too Scarlet..." I missed her calling me Scarlet. It feels surreal.

The reason why I don't want anyone to call me Scarlet. It's exclusively for my mom and dad only. I always prefer Cylen or Lency.

"... So, so much. I'm sorry." she caressed my back and I began crying. It was wholesome for me.

Does this mean that she won't lock herself inside the master's bedroom anymore?

I hope. I wish.

"Pinagluto kita." she added, touching my hair.

"hmm" I nooded. Humiwalay ako sa yakap niya at excited na hinanda 'yong kitchen counter.

"Kamusta 'yong pakiramdam mo?" tanong niya habang hinahanda 'yong manok.

"Ayos naman ma. Medyo magaan na." sagot ko habang hinahanda 'yong plato at mga kutsara.

"Kapag sumakit 'yan bukas, papa check-up tayo." sehestyon niya at inilapag sa counter 'yong manok.

Natakam naman ako dahil matagal ko nang hindi natitikman 'yong tinolang manok ni mama.

Mapapasabak ako sa bigating kainan mga idol.

"Ayos lang ma. Dysmenorrhea lang talaga 'yon, okay na ako ngayon eh." kumbinsi ko.

Anong magagawa eh ayaw ko sa hospital. Katakot doon.

Pinagsandok ako ni mama ng kanin. saka nilagyan ng tinolang manok 'yong Plato ko.

I actually missed this. Sana naman maagang dumating si Kuya mamaya.

"I'm sorry for being so selfish anak." kalaunan ay sabi niya. Tinignan ko naman si mama saka siya nginitian.

Simula nong burst out ko kagabi, Wala na akong grudge na hinahawakan o pagkadismaya sa kaniya. Naiintindihan ko naman.