Jack's POV
I walk around my office, tears begin to slip on my face impetuously, my sight starts to get blurry because of my watery eyes and I can hardly distinguish the various things that are in my office, I try to sifle my tears as much as possible but it doesn't work and tears keep streaming down my cheeks, I feel like drowning.
I'm not able to calm myself down and I start to get nervous, I throw on the floor some of the things that were on my desk and while doing that I risked to make the computer fall. I can barely control my emotions but then I remember a thing, I sit on the floor at a few inches from the wall then I lean my back on it, I take a napkin and try to dry my tears as much as possible so that my view is less blurry, that doesn't really work since tears keep streaming impetuously down my cheeks.
I take my phone out of my pocket, my hand is trembling and this is really annoying anyway I manage to insert the password after getting it wrong two times, I look at the picture of me, Gibbs and Lucy that I set as homescreen background, somehow it calms me down.
I just wish that my hubby was here next to me...wait, what?! Why I called him in that way? Well...at least I didn't say that out loud anyway...I'd seriously give anything to have him here right now...he would make me feel better just by looking at me.
After about ten minutes I feel much better, I put in place the things I had thrown on the floor and then grab my stuff so that I can go back at home.As I walk through the doorway Nick comes to me, I turn around to close the door of my office and roll my eyes, what does he want from me? Didn't he already ask enough questions? I look again at him "Hey Jack, do you want to come with us for drinks?" he asks "I'm sorry but I have other plans for the rest of the evening" I answer and that's true, it's not an excuse, I wanted to look at some things for baby Gibbs, mostly for the room and yeah, I know that it's early for that but it's better if we start to look at those things now "C'mon Jack, come with us" he says, why he keeps insisting? If I said that I can't it's useless to keep insisting "Yeah, ok" I say, why I ended up accepting? Just why? Am I dumb or what? I can't even drink and I don't want to receive tons of questions also for that...right now I just want to hug my hubby...how did I just call him? Like seriously did I just call him my hubby again? Luckily for me I didn't say it out loud otherwise I would've been dead, I mean one thing is if I say it in my mind, another if I say it out loud in front of Nick.
*One hour later*
We're at the bar, McGee, Ellie and Nick are talking about something but I'm not paying that much attention to what they are saying and honestly I don't care. I'm staring at my glass that's still full, lost in my thoughts, I'm thinking about many things and every day it's always the same things that take me away from reality. I can't wait to finally hold baby Gibbs and I think a lot about it, trying to imagine how it'll be, it won't be the first time but still I know that it'll be special...a tear start sliding down my face but I immediately wipe it away...anyway it's still a long journey 'till that moment and I'll try to enjoy every single thing of this although the morning sickness is something that I can't enjoy, I don't like it and it's annoying but still, it's part of this wonderful journey and at a certain point it should end, it could least for longer but I hope that that's not my case so it's not that big of a deal.
I don't know why but I end up thinking about Jethro, I'm seriously so lucky to have him by my side during all this, he always takes such a good care of me and I appreciate that so much, he even has to bear my mood swings and that's kinda difficult but in a way or another he always manages to make me feel better, he's really an amazing hubby...no, but seriously what's wrong with me today? I keep calling him my hubby and it's kinda weird since well...he isn't my hubby but just my boyfriend, my everything, the love of my life and yeah, I should definitely stop.
I look at my phone what?! How?! I lost ten calls from Jethro, most likely he'll be worried, usually I always answer his calls and if I don't answer the first one, even if it usually doesn't happen, I answer the second one. I have no reason to stay here more since I'm minding my own business while ignoring the others so I stand up and look at them "I'm sorry guys but now I really have to go" I say and go out, I don't even wait for them to say something, right now I just want to go at home and do what I planned to do even though it's pretty late...well, for me it's pretty late.
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Our journey
FanfictionGibbs and Jack start their relationship but Jack will decide to stay in Afghanistan...will she go back to Gibbs? If yes what will be the reason? In this fan fiction they are both younger