the topic of love has always come hard to me
the feeling always captured on TV as something so easy
but in reality, love is like a kayak in a lethal storm
its hard to keep hope and keep from drowning into the the blue form
im not talking about love from a partner
but the love from a father
its always seemed as if there was really nothing at all
all the talks we had were meaningless calls.
i sometimes wonder if it was always me
being compared to everything and everyone, being held to the highest standard of what the perfect daughter should be
it almost seems as if the harder i work, the more i get hit by reality
continually hitting me to the ground, a stronger force of gravity
i look at the kids around me and see love in their eyes
while at night i stay up and let out my silent, worthless cries
i ask myself, if so many people have it this easy why are they the ones i strive to be
its almost like all my difficulties, cries, and bleeds were nothing but silly
why should I be held to the standard of a 1 year old?
and the remarks they make towards me burn away that safe blanket leaving me to fight the cold
why should i be held to the persepective of a 19 year old?
as if my life is nothing but a competition that everyone gets a turn to hold.
why am i not good enough for just being who i am?
taking every step of my life as if its an exam
i've always thought the world was against my generation
I mean when you get constantly held back for your flaws and receive no elevation
you start to wonder whats wrong with you?
left with such thoughts to struggle with only to understand that its true
the untouchable feeling of love
decided that this feeling for me should not be heard of
something i so strongly desire along with attention
is replaced with a brutal desire by others for perfection
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