Poetry because why not? ~part 1~

too many things

 the phrase goodbye

a popular word that gets thrown around like its a bird in the sky.

goodbye is a phrase that has been used on me too many times

because at this point it has been said to me so much, it is a crime

I find it funny how when your used for something, you are someone

but when your not needed your ignored, turns out your work is done

people look at me with fear when I tell them of my dreams of another reality

but why make me sad about the thing I feel I am free

people say I need to get my head out of the clouds because big things are coming

but how much joy and hard work can you get from a person who needs numbing

too many things are said now

and sometimes looking in the mirror, I just ask myself how?

How could I have ended up with who I had let myself become

maybe because the only words that ring around my head are dumb

I have let myself go once more to the darkest state of mind

but really what have I got to leave behind

as a girl of my age, I am told of all the things I could be

but instead I sit here writing poems like a nobody

I look around at the pain the world has inflicted on so many

but when you look at what I have done to change, you won't see any

I sometimes look around and compare myself to everyone class

and just looking at everyone and comparing to myself, I get a laugh

the dumb words ring again there better than you

as if I hadn't a clue.

sometimes the people with the biggest smiles have the weight of the world on their backs

and no one seems to care until their dead or they crack

if you decide you can't listen to me, I won't be gray

it has happened to me so much I have just found it okay

so goodbye and thank you for letting my stay

but like everything good in this world I must dissolve away.