Delinquent's Baby

Chapter Seven>

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Chapter Seven> Adoption is out

I was freaking out.

What if my baby wasn't alive? Why have I grown so attached to it already?

All these questions were swarming around my head as the doctor tried to find the baby's heartbeat.

THUMP thump. THUMP thump. THUMP thump.

The noise echoed throughout the room.

"It's back." He whispered gladly

I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding.

It's okay

I sighed in relief.

After a few minutes of examining the baby, the doctor finally let Colton back into the room. His face was flushed, unaware that the baby was still alive.

"It's heartbeat, do you hear it?" I asked as he walked through the doors.

His face lightened as he heard the soft rhythm in the air, it was like he finally realized that it was all real, cause that's how it felt for me. I felt as if the heartbeat was making it all real, as I heard it I knew that it was actually happening. Then I felt nauseous. I was scared, could I really do it? Have a baby this young? All my insecurities were swarming back up again, it was all too real. The pressure was on.

After the doctor asked a few questions he said that he still wasn't extremely sure how the baby's heart stopped beating then started again but he said I should take it easy and that I should continue coming in for regular checkups.

I left with Colton and we drove to a park. We needed to discuss everything. We sat down on a bench in front of the red and blue playground. It was quiet for a while. The park was mostly empty except for a little boy who I assumed to be 2 or 3 trying to climb up the slide, he got frustrated and started kicking the slide, evidentially making him fall over onto the sand. A girl who I guessed to be about 12 was helping him up and pushing his butt up onto the slide acting as if he was magically sliding up the slide. They looked like siblings with their similar bold black hair and piercing blue eyes.

"So...I think we should talk about this..." I broke the silence

"Definitely." He agreed

"So, I'm pregnant." I stated flatly

"Are you sure it's my baby?" He turned his body towards me to face me

"Well the last time I had sex was with you so yes." I answered

"Have you considered abortion?" He asked, scared for my reply

I thought for a moment, "Well it crossed my mind but I don't think I could ever do that, I mean it is our mistake so I think killing this child would mean that we are just trying to eliminate the challenge that we created instead of facing it head on and taking responsibility for the actions we created. And since we were both pretty damn drunk that night we can't necessarily blame it on anybody." I pondered

"I assumed you had birth control and you assumed I had a condom. I guess we both assumed wrong..." He agreed "so what are we going to do?"

"That depends, are you going to stay and help take care of this baby or are you going to leave? Honestly I don't care which one you choose." I stated

He thought for a good two minutes, "Look Kam, I'm not extremely positive on what I want to do yet, I think that this is all too real and honestly I don't know what to do. I mean, we're teenagers, do you think we could ever possibly take care of a living child and go to school at the same time? Babies are a lot of money and I don't know what to do." He put his face in his hands, "I might become like him..." He muttered

I didn't ask and just left him alone in his thoughts as I watched the little boy in his striped blue and white romper with blue denim overalls try to catch a rabbit that was a good 15 feet away from him.

"I'm thinking of adoption." I stated quietly

He raised his head up, "No." He stated flatly

"Why not?" I furrowed my brows

"Hell, fucking, no." He raised his voice

"Why won't you tell me why?" I asked

"Just no. Never in a million years would I let my child go into that hell hole of a system!" He shouted sending shivers down my spine.

"Your child?! YOUR CHILD?! What in all fucks are you talking about your child?!," I scoffed, "I understand that we were drunk and all that but still, at least apologize! And now you're coming over here saying that this baby is your child!? I can't believe you! You do understand that I am a parent as well right? Saying 'my child' like this baby only has one parent! Stupid!" I shouted at him

He gave me an angry glare, "You don't know what it's like in there! This adoption center is way different from all the other ones! Our town is too small to have a good one! Being in there fucking sucks! And you know what? I don't want our child in that fucking piece of shit."

"You're adopted?" I asked

"Yeah.", he seemed to have cooled off, "When I was eight a couple found me beat up and all bloody cause that day I decided I wanted to pet some twelve year old's pet rat, when I lost it, he went bonkers." He lost himself in the memory of being beat up

"An eight year old got beat up by a twelve year old?" My eyes widened

"Yeah, but I was use to it. The caretakers in that place are really abusive, they have a specific room where they keep all their paddles and whips."

I thought for a moment, "Now I don't know what to do...the only thing I can do is keep the baby. I don't think I'm mature enough to raise a child."

"You're not mature enough? Kameron you're basically the most mature person I know, when you want to be." He said genuinely

"I still don't know, I mean that's a lot of money." I mumbled quietly

"Maybe I can help." He suggested

I thought hard. "I don't think you should...I mean...this child needs a father who will always be there and honestly, you're not going to always be there...and you know that as well..."

He was silent.

We left the park without a word said.

There ya go!!!! Not really the best chapter I could've made but oh well.

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