Escaping My Thoughts. .

He really IS gone...

Its really hard to comprehend when you loose someone you love(d) so dearly.

Seeing pictures of Sebastion hurt so much because i know that i wont be able to give him belly rubs, or try to give him a kiss but get his kisses instead..

And the saddest of them all is the last memory i have of him. We were outside and i was brushing him, i got down to face him so i could give him kisses and he slowly moved his face towards me and gently kissed my nose..

I was the one in the family who got him to eat/drink when he was sick, i was the one who secretly let him on the couch without my parents ever knowing..

I love you Sebastion and i hope when the 18th comes round that you'll have the best birthday with God in Heaven.