Faryah

55

" I judged you wrongly with that video, I honestly shouldn't have"

" you just realized that?, oh my goodness, Khalid that simple mistake you made for not believing in me cost us the lives of our grandparents" I snapped as I tried to control my temper. I had lots of things to say to him. He carefully placed Najmah in her carriage and stood to look at me." Do you know how I waited everyday to get a text or call from you?, do you know how hard it was to make people see that I'm happy while deep down I'm hurting?, deep down the pain I'm feeling inside is eating me up, do you know how badly my heart ached and how I always longed to be with you?, because I was naive and loved you with all my heart, I loved you genuinely Khalid but what did I get at the end of the day?, Maltreatment" I snapped again as I tried controlling the tears that were already flooding my eyeballs. " You never trusted me Khalid, you never did, you claimed you loved me but it was obviously to make your grandfather happy, it was never sincere" That was what I saw. " Faryah I loved you with all my heart, I have always loved you"

" You're lying to me, stop it, I'm fed up. I have learned to forgive you and your family. I have honestly but I can't deny the pain I always feel for how you turned your back against me so suddenly, you showed me who you truly were that day"  I added again and watched him almost breakdown. " Khalid my grandfather trusted you, he trusted your family with his granddaughter but he got his death in return" I added as I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

" That's why I'm here to make up for it"

" if I hadn't sent you those divorce papers Khalid, be honest with yourself will you be here right now?" I asked and waited for his answer. I didn't want to cause a scene. "I don't know" he answered and my heart sank. I expected it.

" Khalid, look I am not mad at you, I just wanted to let out all the pain and anger I've been hiding for the past year to you, I have found it in my heart to forgive you but I can't ever forget, the scar is always going to be here in my heart, it's not your fault. All of this is Allah's plan, we all mistakes, I'm still hurt even though I hide it, I am, it hurts always, everyday, we could have been in a much different situation if that hadn't happened, but this is where Allah wants us to be" I said and dried my eyes. " The past few months haven't been good for me either, I turned to something else, I drank, I became a workaholic and I didn't have time for my family anymore, I made a big mistake with Pamela and I ruined my life. I was not the person I used to be, when I received your petition, I felt like I was awakened, because I still love you Faryah, I will always love you and I can't let you go, I can't ever do that I could never bring myself to do that"

" But you did it before"

"I know and it was a horrible mistake, I'm sorry, I am so sorry"

" Khalid, I don't need your apologies, Because I have forgiven you and I have moved on. Your happiness doesn't lie in my hands, it lies within yourself"

" No, I love you, I can't be complete without you, just let me make it up to you" I was getting tired of going over and over it again. " If you really want to make up for what you did Khalid, just sign the divorce petition, So that I can be happy, if you truly love me you would want to see me happy and not depressed always, So please Khalid, Just sign it please, I can't ever be with you, I can't bring myself to trust you again, I am so sorry" He was crying. He couldn't hide his tears any longer. " Khalid, I'm never going to deny you your rights as Najmah's father, that's the only connection we have now, Najmah, aside from that I really don't want to have anything to do with you again" I said sternly. It was time I left. " Faryah, I can't sign the divorce papers, I can't bring myself to, I am going to fight for your love again, I will" He answered and I tightened my grip on Najmah's carriage. " Khalid it's honestly best for you not to, you won't win, you've already lost me, opportunity comes but once, you've lost your opportunity Khalid" I said and fixed my bag on my shoulder. " I know but I'm not going to give up on you just like that"