The Girl Next Door

Chapter 21

Taylor's POV:

This wasn't right, I didn't know what Harry and I were - or what Niall and I were anymore either. All I knew is that I could be cheating on Niall with Harry and it was so wrong. But why could something so wrong feel so right? Harry's strong hands cupping my cheeks when our lips meet feels like the best thing in the world. Like - it's where I'm supposed to be.
Then again, I feel the same about Niall. I'm no way okay with the situation, cheating is awful. I'm just stuck, don't know what to do. What to think or what to feel. I'm so lost and confused.

"Harry I-"
"Taylor, please."
"Harry this isn't right. Niall and I, we're together. I think."
"You think?"
"It's complicated, alright? Him and I got in an argument and I don't know what we are right now but I just know this is in no way right."
He sighed and stood up, running his hands through his hair.

"God, Taylor. All I can think about is you - your hair, your eyes, your face, your lips-"
"Harry-"
"I think I'm in love with you, Taylor."
I sat in silence for a moment. Harry sat down on the bed next to me. His hand touched mine, and he put my small hand into his.
"Taylor, I feel awful for what I did the other day."
"What?"
"I shouldn't of been - like that. I don't know. It was just weird, I wasn't being myself."
"Oh, um, it's alright."
"I just want to show you love. I want you to love me back."
"I - I - don't know."
"Hm?"
"I don't know. I'm in love with Niall, but we've known each other for so long, and it's just so, so weird."
"Huh, I never thought I would lose you to him."
"Wait - what?"
He seemed shaky and nervous. I was really confused.
"Taylor I've loved you since the day I met you."
"Harry, I-"
"But now you're with him. I lost my opportunity, but I just want you so bad."
I took a deep breath, my hands were sweaty and shaky.
"Listen, Harry, I'm just gonna need some time."
"I understand."
After that nerve racking conversation, I shakily walked out the door. Once things started looking up for me, they're all crumbling again. How have I been so blind? Harry has loved me all these years and my ignorance blinded me.
I was a fool.
I didn't know what was next to come, so I just slipped some shoes on and headed out the door. I'd been leaving this hotel room a lot lately, but I didn't care. I wanted to cry and give up right now. Life is too complicated.
My hands slid to my pockets, and they had $30 in them.
It was ten o'clock, and I silently prayed that there was some breakfast left over in the hotel. I walked down the hallway and to the lobby, it was mostly empty. I spotted the breakfast bar and headed toward it. The breakfast run was almost over so I tried my best to hurry and get what I could.
I sat alone and ate, my mind racing. Niall was mad at me, Harry was in love with me, and I didn't know where I stood.
I wished it was night, I didn't want to go through this day. I finished some eggs and got up from my table. I'm sure I looked horrible, and then I felt a tear drop off my chin. Had I been crying this whole time?
I'm so stressed out. I wanted to show love to Harry and Niall both, but I couldn't. I had to decide. Niall was upset with me over the I love you session last night. If I brought this matter up, I don't think he could handle it. Neither could I. The gravity of the situation hit me hard, so I walked out the lobby doors. I wasn't sure where I was going, but I was walking wherever my feet took me.

I had to stop eventually, my destination still cloudy. I pulled out my cell phone and suddenly got an idea. I dialed Abigail's phone number and I was hoping she would answer. After a few rings, she did.
"Hey, Abigail? Is there any way I could come over like...right now?"
"Oh, um, yeah."
"Alright, where are you staying?"

(Thank you all so much for 3k reads. I know it's been quite a while since I've updated, but I just felt like writing some more. I hope you're all still interested in this story, because if you are I'll continue to write. It's hard to believe this year this story will be 3 years old. Keep reading and thank you so much. With love, Angel. <3)