Jaan

Part 21- Almost

"You actually think I'll shoot you? You think I'll do such a thing?" I was testing her. Her expressions suddenly changed.

"You holding a gun isn't what scares me and you know that Aslan, what I'm thinking about right now is all the people that you aimlessly killed with this gun of yours that you're holding with so much pride—good thing that Fazal is alive seriously, I couldn't be more grateful but that doesn't make you or your friends less of killers," she said in pure disgust.

"You just made a judgment like that without even knowing—"

"Even if I don't know exactly what happened that day and why you have this gun in your possession, you had it three years ago and you still have it now—that tells me everything I need to know," she cuts me off. So, she really thinks of me as a killer only. She turned about to leave but I had to add one last thing.

"I still love you as much as I did back then and I hope you still have a place in your heart for me even if right now, you don't trust me at all—I can prove to you that I'm not the bad guy you think I am," I said hoping she would give me a reply.

But no, she still left after hearing what I had to say. You shouldn't have judged me this fast Adalina. I'm not who you think I am. Now, I just want to make you mine as soon as possible. And I will do it without any shame. Now that you know half of who I am, be ready to see more. I'm not holding back anymore.

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Adalina's POV.

He still loves me? I have been unable to sleep or even think of something else and it's already 2am in the morning. After talking with him, I ran away to hide in my parents' car. I needed time to process everything and instead of going back there to clarify things with Ayla, I chose to hide in the car. I'm glad I clearly told him what I thought about him but his reply is not getting to me. He said he hopes I'd still give him a chance. Impossible. I'm never giving myself to a killer.

Even if I were to let myself get confused by my heart which never seems to be able to think properly when he's around me, I won't let it win over what's right and wrong. I still can't believe I've been believing a lie this whole time and I also cannot accept the fact that Aslan owns a gun. What kind of job does he do? Why does he need a gun? Does he actually kill other people?

To be honest, when he pulled out the gun my heart started racing and I was afraid he might dare to shoot at me. But he did not. He was looking at me like he was innocent. They say, the eyes never lie. No matter what he is, I still don't want to be a part of his world. I believe that Allah separated us for a reason. I learned to be independent and happy by myself. I learned to love myself, and I understood my worth. All of that happened when he left my life.

I was about to drift off to sleep when my phone buzzed. I grabbed it and checked expecting it to be Ayla again who has been spamming me with questions since I disappeared but to my surprise, it wasn't her.

I'll be there tomorrow morning to ask for your hand in marriage, you better agree or your family will have to pay for the consequences. And I'm not kidding at all.

My heart stopped for a moment. The number was unknown but I knew exactly who it was. How dare he?! He must be out of his mind. Why would he do anything to my family?! My heart dropped to my stomach. There's no chance I'm getting any sleep. He can mess with me as much as he wants. But I won't sit back if he messes with the people I love the most. I was getting so nervous that I wanted to cry. Ya Allah, what is going to happen? What should I do?