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02 || The Wonders Of Google

We had ventured far into the realm of condoms and what we now knew to be sexual intercourse according to Google.

Not only was there lots of demonstrations on how to apply a condom but there were visual aids of how it was used.

Google called it pornography.

The amount of information was overwhelming, yet we couldn't stop our curiosity as we scrolled through the various disturbing videos and pictures.

"She's screaming. This type of thing mustn't be good for the female." Ella adds watching in horror as the girl lets out scream after scream as the man does unimaginable things to her.

I nervously chew on my nails as I side eye her. "Have you and Joshua done anything like that?" I ask hesitantly, referring to Ella's assigned soulmate Josua.

All Dillian and I had done was share kisses in private as it was frowned upon to publicly display things like that. We didn't do it often though, seeing as it was unnecessary and got us no where.

She nods as my eyes widen in shock, "Well? How was it?" I push.

She purses her lips and thinks for a moment. "Well, we didn't do that." She says, motioning to the screen of my phone. "We'd heard from some of his friends down at The Compound that there were other enjoyable things you could do. But it never felt as good for me as it did him."

I try my hardest to understand what she's saying and offer my advice. "Well, did you make him feel good?" I reason.

Father Kade has always said that as females our number one source of pleasure is derived from giving to others. Of course we must be willing first but for the most part we are expected to deliver pleasure.

Ella chews at her bottom lip and nods."Yes. Well judging off of the noises and sounds coming from this man," She points out referring to the man inside the screen. "Joshua was making the same noises. But I never felt as good as her." She speaks her eyes glued to the bare woman on the screen.

I frown, trying to find a possible solution for her issue but she speaks.

"Do you ever wonder that maybe your not meant to be with your assigned?" She whispers the forbidden thought. "Like... Sometimes I wonder what if I wanted a woman, like Luciel and her assigned Shelby. Maybe Father Kade made a mistake with me?" She offers.

I send her an incredulous look. Luciel and Shelby were only assigned to each other becasue both of their assigned soulmates hadn't returned from college on the outside.

Luciels assigned had died of anxiety from the harshness of the world, while Shelby's had been kidnapped by the crazy people of the outside world. They'd both spent so much time together coping the loss of their assigned that they had both fallen in love.

It was rare but so beautiful and only happened because Father Kade had decided to give them something to help cope in the loss of their assigned soulmates.  Love.

"That's impossible. Father Kade is never wrong in anything let alone his assignments. If he assigns you with a man then you are destined to be with a man." I say as Ella nods but her eyes fill with sadness.

The look in her eyes upsets me and I purse my lips thinking it over.

Father Kade didn't make mistakes. But what if he did? And who was I to stop Ella from finding out? What if it would make her happy?

Her sadness pulls at my heartstrings and I instantly want to make her feel better. "Well..." I mumble biting my lip in thought. She snaps her head to me, her eyes glistening hopefully for any sort of advice and I try my best. "Maybe you ought to try it just to be sure?"