"How many times can the same thing break your heart?..."
"As long as you love it"
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Y/n Pov
A typical Tuesday at OSU had come around once again, a gloomy morning full of zoom classes and countless thoughts of dropping out. After my last class of the day, I decided to drag myself down to the study hall to clear my mind for a bit. Gathering some notebooks and a handful of pens to at least make it look like I was doing something productive, I headed up to the 5th floor.
As I entered the room I noticed nobody was in sight except for the front desk lady who hates her job. I sat down near the window which gave a full view of our football field that was being redone for the new season.
The TV abruptly flickered on from across the room without anyone touching it, as much money as this school makes the least they can do is pay the electric bill.
"Well folks it's a big day for Ohio State fans as their former star quarterback Justin Fields has officially been drafted to the Chicago Bears"
What a way to speak of the devil. The last time we talked he told me how much he hated the sight of me, the sound of my voice made him sick, his exact words.
I have to admit, after a while I become numb to all the hurt I once felt so deeply. I guess some things just happen to the best of us. I shook my head trying to refrain myself from going too deep into my thoughts, pulling out my laptop I forced myself to attempt some assignments that were way overdue.
No less than 30 minutes had passed by when I began to hear constant shuffling coming from across the room. My mind was so focused on finishing my work I didn't even bother to look up.
"So you just gonna sit there and ignore me?" a familiar voice said nearly inches away from me
I lifted my eyes from my screen wishing I was just seeing things. He sat directly across from me with a hood over his head like he was trying to be discrete. Although I had over 1 million questions I wanted to ask him, only one came out.
"What the hell are you still doing here?"
He looked at me for a quick second before pulling out two plane tickets that were perfectly laminated. I grabbed them out of his hands and read the labels,
"COL to CHI, Departure time 6:00 pm, Arrival time 8:45 pm"
"The only reason I'm still here is because you are" he stated.
I looked down at the plane tickets once more before looking back up at him, my mind couldn't grasp onto what he was implying.
"Correct me If I'm wrong but, last time I checked you said you hated my existence, now you're telling me that you want to go 10,000 miles away from home just so you can go play football and cheat on me during your free time"
He shook his head in disgust while eyes rolled into the back of his head, "You know I never once cheated on you Y/n, why can't you just come with me and we'll figure out the rest later"
I looked at him in disbelief at his proposal, I knew there had to someone or something that was conflicting with his mind. As much as I wanted to jump across the table and violate him I couldn't help but notice the sense of urgency he had in his eyes, gets me every time.
"Give me one good reason why I should go with you"
"I can't do this without you, you're the reason why I was able to make it this far in the first place. I know I said a lot of things I can't take back but that's never gonna change the fact that I need you in my life now more than ever" he said looking up at me.
His response replayed in my head like a broken record player. It was no secret that we were far from perfect, some may even call it toxic, but hearing him admit how he truly feels gives me a feeling of clarity, even if it's just for the moment.
"This is more than just a one-and-done thing..." I trailed off watching his eyes follow mine.
"And? you know we can't live without each other anyways, let alone a whole year"
To a certain extent he had a point.. my mind began to spin at the thought of me leaving my family here alone and moving away with the boy who causes me more problems than life itself, "Say we do end up running off together to a state we've never been to before with no family, no friends, what happens next?"
"I guess we'll just have to wait and see" he shrugged.
"And if I say no?"
"You couldn't deny me even if you wanted to" he said ever so confidently, as if he could see right through me. "We're gonna be fine Y/n don't even stress about it"
"We?" I questioned him
"Yeah, as long as I'm still here on this earth I'll always be with you, you can never get rid of me" he said to me.
I watched the words fall from his mouth nearly frozen in time, his words may come back to haunt me down the road but I'd be okay with it because, in the end, he was going to be the death of me anyway.
