Clouding My Judgement

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"To believe I want you" He stressed

Naomi disregarded his second confession. She refused to believe him. None of it made any sense.

"You don't like me Theo. You don't want me. You probably just have some weird fantasy of getting the girl who didn't immediately fall at your feet to like you"

"You hate me, stop confusing your feelings"

"You think I hate you?" He raised his eyebrows, "you an think that all you like, but I've told you the truth, I've always told you the truth when you've asked for it, I'm just bad at expression my emotions so it comes out shitty"

The way he acted with her, the way he fucked other girls, the way he sent the picture to Seb. The timing of everything between them. None of it made sense for him to like her. "I'm annoying... wow, says the one who confessed whilst I was in a situation with another boy at the time"

"Not only did you do that, you planned to kiss me and got someone to take a picture of it and send it to Seb!"

"I have every right not to believe you. You don't even respect me" she argued

"I never planned to kiss you" he spoke

"I didn't get anyone to take that picture"

"Stop fucking lying" she interrupted

"It was fucking Charlotte!"

"What?"

"Charlotte was pissed that I hadn't been talking to her and then she took the picture of us to blackmail you but she ended up being flatmates with Seb so she just sent it to him instead"

"But when I kissed you, I told you I didn't care about him. And may I just say, It wasn't like u stopped me that night. You wanted me as well" He stated

"I was drunk and high. I wasn't thinking straight" She exclaimed still trying to comprehend the fact that Leilani had the right idea when she said that anyone could of seen her walk away with Theo to go into his room that night. It wasn't him. She had gotten him so wrong. So he was telling the truth? He wanted her? No. Even if he liked her he still broke her trust.

"Being crossfaded isn't an excuse to cheat. You could of stopped me the moment I first kissed you , but you didn't" he agrued

"Well, you're the one who hurt me, you used something that I trusted you with and you used it against me. I kissed you back because... because, I just did okay? But there was no reason for you to think it was okay to do that, especially after what you said to me the night I slept in your bed" she expressed

Theo stood there frozen. He couldn't help but recall what she had just said. How she claimed she didn't have a reason for kissing him back, but still did it. How she paused, as if she wanted to say more but wouldn't allow herself. How she scrambled to get her words right as if she let something slip which she shouldn't of.

"What was I supposed to do? You were with Seb half of the time and when I finally did kiss you, you left?"

"You should of told me from the start. When you knew you had 'feelings' instead of just sitting back and watching me. And hurting me everytime you spoke to me, in some backwards way of trying to make me like you back!" She huffed

He knew she was right, but he also didn't know when he actually caught feelings, it just happened. But, she was right in the fact that, that night he couldn't deny he was in the wrong for kissing her. She was in a situation with Seb at the time, but he couldn't help it. He couldn't help but find out what it was like to finally kiss her in that moment. That was him showing how sorry he was. That was him showing her what he truly felt in that moment. That was him needing her. Wanting her. He couldn't form any words in that moment, a kiss was what he needed to do.