poetry

a shell of myself

How can I still be the girl you fell in love with when I feel like a husk of a person

I'm not her anymore and I think we both know it and yet you still hold onto me

I doubt I'm ever going to change back now, I know if I tried I'd still be different

I've lost my flame and drive to do more than just survive

I'm trapped in the crumbling foundations of what was already a broken home

My body and my mind hate me and I've become reliant on you to exist anymore

So I really am not the girl you fell in love with a decade gone past

I have changed even more than our relationship has all these years

So how do you keep holding onto me like I haven't aged a day or made one mistake

How do you keep getting better and still want me like you always have