Still With You | JK ff

Chapter 2: Did you even think about me?

"The bouquet is for you by the way, someone left it in our class," she said as she pushed it towards your end of the table. You felt a flutter in the pit of your stomach, as you stood up to peek into the tall bouquet of pink and purple carnations and lilies. "There's no card, I already checked," she winked at you slyly. "There was just a note with your name on it. It's probably from your Mom, she's so sweet!"

"Yeah, she told me she sent something," you lied to her, even though you really didn't know who sent you the bouquet.

Soon the bar was bustling with people from your batch, who were singing songs, laughing loudly, and playing games, celebrating the end of an era. Every time some girls would break down crying while hugging their friends, the whole bar would erupt in a loud applause and laughter to tease them. Sooyoung was circling the room and dancing with different groups, being the social butterfly that she always was, but every now and then she would come back to your table and plant a kiss on your cheek, making your ears red. You were finally drunk enough to let yourself relax a little bit – you sometimes cursed the fact that you could hold your drinks well, because it was so hard for you to get drunk. The obsessive thought of Jungkook existing on this planet, and that you would probably never meet him again, had finally subsided into a dark corner of your mind, and you felt like you could breath for once.

You dug through your bag for your cigarettes and stepped out into the dark back alley of the bar for a smoke. You leaned against a wall as you took a drag and released a cloud of smoke towards the sky. Besides the muffled thump of the music playing inside, there was no other sound and no other person around you. There was a time when you felt at peace on nights like these, you felt like yourself, when you were alone with your thoughts. You had always embraced solitude, but something inside you had changed. You wanted to escape this silence now, because you didn't want to hear what your heart had to say, even though it was a deafening sound. JUNGKOOK.

It was a night like this, when the sky was clear and the radiant moonlight drowned the stars, when a gentle winter breeze carried the scent of rain with it, when the trees rustled like whispers, when the city lights twinkled on the horizon, that you had met him. The sight of him leaning into you with a smile and embracing you into a kiss, played in your mind, for the hundredth time, and it made you smile, but pinched your heart. 'Why did I fall for him, so hard?' you thought, as you suddenly had the urge to play his song 'Still with you'. You hadn't had the courage to play it ever since that night, which was hard, because it was your favorite song. But tonight, you knew you couldn't resist. You pulled out your phone and pressed play as you took another drag of the cigarette, engulfed in a haze of the smoke. The sound of his voice seemed to echo in the dark alley, and you closed your eyes. You began to hum the song along with the track because you just couldn't help it. During the second verse, you felt like you could hear his voice twice, as if the song were also playing somewhere else. You stopped singing, and sure enough, you could hear two of Jungkook's voices. You opened your eyes and paused the track, and the only sound that remained was of him singing, but it wasn't the track playing anywhere else. It was just his glorious voice, magnified by the silence of the night, that was slowly growing louder and closer to you.

You turned around in disbelief and saw his silhouette against the light flooding from the streetlamp on the main road. It seemed to form a halo around him, as he continued to walk towards you slowly, singing the lines of the song softly...

'When will it be?

If I see you again

I will look into your eyes

And say, "I missed you".'

He stopped a few steps away from you and for a few moments, there was nothing but silence between you. He ran his hand through his hair and took a step closer.