$¡l3n(e [yoonkook]

'Problems' function is on

That's it. He got me. He crushed into me like a meteorite. The damage is equal. We are on the ground now. He is on top of me. I'm dead. I didn't even try to stop him. Something is not okay with me. I'm just kidding! I'm not okay at all. I should set myself on fire to clean my emo soul.

The hug ends when he sits up while jerking his head to the right.

" Sorry! Dynamite! I'm a dynamite! I didn't mean to hurt you. " - He says and he is right because he fucking is one. In the meantime his head is still jerking while he is sitting on me. That creates a new problem because my tics copy his like a mirror and THAT IS RUDE. It wouldn't be if he knew I have tourettes but yeah... It seems like I fucked up again.

All of a sudden Jungkook starts to laugh and helps me stand up and clean my clothes from the dust. Wait! Isn't he angry?

" That's okay and I'm sorry, copying you was rude of me. " - No vocal tics. What the hell?

" Oh no! Carrot! Please don't apologize lover! hyung! It's fine. Actually I liked that one. You're so sexy! funny hyung! " - He gives me the most adorable smile that I seen in my whole life and then-

" Yoonieee!!!!! "

" Honey! " - I feel pain in my chest. Why did this hurt? Is my heart sick? I wouldn't be surprised if my lungs were tho. But am I dying? Finally? Now that would be great. I honestly never liked saying this word and it bothers me but it never hurt before.

Fuck this! I need to be extra nice to Jimin after what I did yesterday.

" Someone is having a he day I see. You're so handsome Chim! " - I tried really hard not to tic but I hit my right tight with my fist while jerking my head to the left. I feel Jungkook's gaze on me and that makes me uncomfortable. If it affects my tics... Now that will be a disaster.

" Yah! Min Yoongi don't hit yourself! I'm not mad at you! So no needs of selfharming! You know I can't be mad at you. " - He looks in my eyes and holds my still twitching hand. He thinks it's my anxiety so everything is fine now. Gosh he is so dominant now. It's very rare so I don't know what to do with it. He usually is a baby mochi.

" Dragon! Hii! My name is jealous! Jungkook! Nice to u-u-u ... " - Jungkook's head starts jerking so badly then it seems like he can't breath. He and Chim shaked their hands but now his own hand is trembling still at the same position. The whole thing from the outside seems like he is lagging but in the inside this is the hell itself. I know that very well. If this becomes a tic attack I don't know what will I do. It hurts to see him like this but his tics can generate an attack for me too and that wouldn't help on any of us.

Without thinking I touch his cheeks with my hands and try to make eye contact with him without hurting him.

" Can you look at me please? " - My voice is so calm and deep it surprised even me. Still no vocal tics I see. He slowly looks down at me and I see clearly now that he is scared, but not from the tic attack so what else then?

" I don't know what scared you so badly but can you try and breathe for me? If your feelings trigger your attack then you can stop it with calming yourself down. I'm here with you so don't worry. " - How can I be so calm? He can trigger me into a tic attack right fucking now but I couldn't care less at the moment. My right leg is trembling so fucking hard and I'm not sure if I could move my hands away by myself but i don't give two shits.

I can feel that Jimin is scared as well but he didn't lose from his dominance. That would be just a fucked up situation if this whole shit turns him over and girly Jimin would be so fucking frustrated in her boyish clothes. With all my respect I don't need that now.

Jungkook tics started to calm down a bit so we can go to do infirmary. We all agreed that would be the best to do. Less people less tic. Maybe I can calm myself down as well. My body is so tense and I don't know how can I still use my right leg cause it's trembling as fuck but I'm walking so what's the point of worrying. I'll be fine. I'm always fine. Fuck! I can't remember a single time when I felt truly fine. I feel so tired. Sometimes I feel like even breathing is impossible. Then it happens so at the end of the story it seems like everything's fine. I'm alive after all.

I completely zoned out so it's a new for me that we arrived to the infirmary. I step inside and make eye contact with the nurse.

" Who did you fight with again? " - She asks me while doing some shit with her eyebrows.

" It's nice! to see you too, Hyolyn. " - I greet her with my usual blank expression while my leg is shaking like crazy. What the actually fuck...

" What did you do? " - She asks again. I deserved that. I know very well.

" Nothing! I fucking swear! " - And here we go. Welcome back vocals. I hated you and I always will.

" Don't swear on me! What happened then? "

I can't. After the appealing reunion with my vocal tics I lost it. If I open my mouth I'm sure I will shout shits and I can't let myself to do that. Panic. Fuck! Why is my life so fucking difficult!!?? I wanted to help someone! For once! And I got back shit! Literally shit! I'm fucked!

Suddenly Jungkook touches my shoulder and yeah... well... Could I be more fucked? Oh yes! I absolutely forget the two little brat behind me. What a genius I am... So Jungkook's hand on my left shoulder feels like electric shock to me and scares the shit out of me. And because of the sudden fear I'm trying to jump out of my skin now. Which we can say I succeeded because I'm falling right now. I can hear Jimin's angelic voice while calling my name and a panicked 'lover' from Jungkook. Yeah I was so lucky I tripped on my own feet so now I can enjoy the existence of gravity until I hit my head and all I see after that is black.

Mh... 'lover' ? Seriously what's with this kid and his tics? And why do I like this word from his mouth? Even if it's a tic. It feels nice...

In the end I feel my own smile while I completely black out.