you make me feel
all the love
that i have lost
in a lifetime.~~~~~~~~
we spent the remaining days in vienna drinking fancy wine, eating pasteries (i found a cafe that sold lemon tarts), trying on fancy old dresses, and screaming to music in the car. this, this is everything i would've dreamt of as a teenager. i just hoped i would find someone to fulfill this fantasy, and when i met jack, i knew somehow that i would end up being a miserable housewife. that's why i had to leave.
it wasn't just because of the affair. i don't blame the flight attendant. this was just inevitable. jack will never change, and if he ends up marrying that girl, i pray to whoever that she ends up okay.
all the time i lost with jack, i would never get back. all i can do now is make more memories to compensate. maybe one day, i'll forget about jack. maybe one day, i won't flinch when i smell whiskey on a random person in the street, maybe i won't even wake up in a sweat feeling pressure on my wrists, when in reality, nobody's there.
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back at home, wilbur's apartment feels cold. untouched. the lights took a few extra seconds to turn on all the way, and the whole house smelled clean of absence. running my hands on the cold counter tops, i felt at home. sure i missed vienna, however this was a different type of home.
i placed my bomber jacket on the sofa and looked up at wil.
"come here, i have a new song idea" he called as he jogged to the bedroom.
we sat down on the soft bed and wil tuned his guitar, and handed me a sheet of paper.
"i started writing this on the plane when you were asleep"
i grinned reading the first verse, and he started strumming a sweet chord.
"The cute bomber jacket you've had since sixth form
Adorned with patches of places you've been
Is nothing on my khaki coat I got
From a roadside when I was sixteen"
YOU ARE READING
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Fanfictionmain character (first person) Lavender is forced to leave the city she grew up in, and move across the world to Brighton with nobody but her abusive boyfriend. renting an office space, she hopes to make friends and gets to know the area. !! possible...