Reality VI
The Bad Guy
Why am I always the bad guy?
Why?
I only said what I really feel
I only expressed what I really am
I only let loose what I've been hiding
No one knows what's the truth... only I
No one can understand what I've been going through... only I
No one will see what I really have in mind... only I
Why am I always the bad guy?
Why?
I've been saving you from the danger you got into
I've been helping you to get out from the mess you made
I've been pushing you away from the horrible things you took
But why am I the bad guy?
Why?
They would say hurtful things to me when they don't even know what happened
They would tell awful things to me when they don't even know what you did
They would judge me when they don't even know how ill the things you decided to take
I only want them to understand that I'm not strong enough to take everything right now
I only want them to know that I can't handle too much negativity that you brought to me
I only want them to see that I will never be the person they knew
Why am I always the bad guy?
Why?
I didn't want anybody to get hurt by my sudden burst
I didn't want anybody to hear the painful words that I speak when I'm not thinking right
But after all... those words I spoke was all the truth
I'm filled with anger in my heart
My mouth is closed and can't utter it out loud
I'm filled with emotions that I can't pull out of my head
I'm breathless and crying
Why am I always the bad guy?
Why?
I never understand
But I felt all the pain when they judged me so hard
I felt all the nails pricked in my heart when they told me that I'm nothing old
I felt all the blocks rain over me when they slapped to my face that I'm a bad person
I never intended to sound like I'm disrespectful
It's not my will to to hurt anybody
The purpose of I is to... tell the truth
But why am I always the bad guy?
Why?
I've been weak before...
Ending my life would be a nice way to end all of this
Cutting the line of my heartbeat would be easy
But no...
I'm not that weakling anymore
If this problem challenging me...
I will prove everyone that I'm not the bad guy.
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"Doesn't mean that life gives you the worst living, you should give up. Life is a crazy cycle of everything, so get on with it, accept it and live it up."
- GreenPs
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This chapter might sound nonsensical but if ever you want to understand, try to think or put yourself in a person who knows a secret, a dark secret that no one should know yet you're the one to blame when things jumbled up. No one believes in you, and you are brought at fault.
If things like this get worse and worse, like what the previous chapter said, there are always someone who suffers worse than you do.
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SpiritualI want you to realize that you're not alone... There are many people experiencing the feelings you cannot voice out, same as you... I want you to know that the feeling you're suffering right now has an escape but through Reality.
