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5

Recap of y/n's POV

I ordered black bean noodles and waited at the school gate and wow it was fast...he came within 15 mins...

I took the order and head back to my room

On the way there were some students who were not acting like students

They were smoking definitely not good to be around I better run

I run from there as fast as I can I hope they that didn't see me...*dhum* I close the door and lock it and sit on my table to have the noodles

And yeah guess what? it was tasty!!

Days passes by just like this...

I kept studying hard...

Now the say which I waited for is near

Only some days are left till I finish my studies for photography and fashion designing and all overall studies, so why not find about getting a job in big hit?... entertainment?...

And there it goes...my head is on disaster...I just did some research about how can I get a job in big hit and what I found out is that most of the people are going on and on about saying that

- I have to be married
and many more things to get job in big hit...bruh what? I came here to get a job in big hit not only to meet BTS but to work and settle here too, but this is triggering me how the hell I can be married and then go there for job!?

I feel like dying have I messed up my life?
What have I done?
What if I never get a job over there?
What if, my eyes start to get watery, because for a moment I got scared

I just stopped myself from thinking more shit about this I wore my coat and head outside for a walk or imma go mad.

I went and took a seat on the empty bench which was near the gate.

The school campus seemed empty now

Why?

Ah I remembered

They went on a school trip, I couldn't join, the reason was that I couldn't pay for that, and yeah I was not interested in going, but I had not expected for the whole school to just disappear

I lay my head down on the stone seat and look up in the sky...

"I miss my home, I miss everyone."

I had went back home in the vacations every year, but this time I was not going to go home,

I had to get a job this time

I started crying so harshly I was alone so I could cry

I let the tears out of my eyes, it was cold too I cried after a long time

There were some 1 or 2 vehicles passing by the street every 5-10mins and 2-3 people walked by too

Each one of them was just staring at me as if I'm a mad creature crying in the middle of nowhere but that didn't bother me.