Is he my best friend..? Or more..?

Tamaki suoh...

~Kyoya's pov~

I came into music room 3 -the host club's club room- and sat down at my usual spot. I took out my laptop and started working as always since I was the first one there...

Again..? You'd think the president would be the first one here every day, guess not.

I made myself some coffee after a bit before sitting back down; I looked at the door.

Where are they?

I looked at my watch.

They're usually here by now, strange...

I finished my coffee as Tamaki walked in, his tie barely done right, and his hair was a mess.

What an idiot...

I got up and walked over to him to fix his tie, "you wake up late again?"

Tamaki nods, "yeah, my alarm didn't go off." he laughs a bit as I fixed his tie.

"Than set more than one alarm, moron. Where's your comb? Your hair is a mess."

Tamaki nodded and handed me his hair comb.

Taking it from him, I sat down on the couch again, "come here, let me fix it for you."

Tamaki sat down in front of me, and I started fixing his hair.

Perfectly soft... as always...

I smiled to myself as I fixed his hair.

I enjoyed fixing his hair for him because of how soft it was. Of course, he didn't know I enjoyed it since I always acted annoyed after I had finished. I usually called him an idiot or a moron because that's what he is, but he's my best friend, and he's nothing but perfect in my eyes... If only he knew how much I appreciate him. I don't want to tell him because I fear he'll reject me and ruin what we already have since I don't think he's gay... He loves "his little girl," also known as Haruhi Fujioka. I'm not jealous of her; I appreciate her. She makes Tamaki happier than I ever could, and I would give him up for her because what's my happiness when he's unhappy? Hell, I never show my emotions, whether I'm happy or sad, angry or calm, no one would know... I don't smile; I don't frown, I don't scream, I don't do anything but work. My father says if I want his company, I have to earn it; I have to do more than just keeping my grades up; I have to go to my limit and past. And if that's what I have to do, then I will, who cares if I'm happy? Who cares if I don't get any sleep for days? My days of fun were over before they even started. I push myself to my limit, and once I get to my limit, I continue. I work best under pressure; everyone in our club depends on me, they expect me to keep us afloat, and that's precisely what I will do. I will keep our club afloat, and when I get my father's company, I will keep that afloat as well because that's what the third ootori son must do to be seen; that's what the third ootori son must do to get out of his brother's shadow and shine. The third ootori son will shine; he will go outside the lines, he will succeed. I am that ootori son, and I will succeed no matter what. If you're in my way, you will be taken out... but him... he's in my way... but I don't want to take him out... I want him in my way... he amazes me. He can get his father's company, all he has to do is try... but he doesn't... all he wants is to see girls happy. I never understood him or his motives.. but he is everything to me. He is the one person that sees me as Kyoya Ootori -the boy that loves to paint, the vice president of the host club, the boy that will succeed- not Kyoya Ootori -the forgotten Ootori boy-

~time skip~

I sat in my spot working on my laptop as usual as the guest came in; it was a typical day at the Ouran high school host club... or so it seemed. I looked over at Tamaki for a moment.

Tamaki suoh.. my idiot of a best friend. Do I have feelings for him..? Of course, I do.. who wouldn't? Sure, he's an idiot, but he's perfect and way out of my league. Besides, even if I did have a chance he likes Haruhi, I can't do anything about that. Why do I even have feelings for him..? Is it his beautiful soft blonde hair? Perhaps his deep violet eyes? Or maybe it's the way he says my name, or how he calls me "mommy," or his adorable smile, his little laugh... the way he giggles when I say something he found funny. Damn...

"Kyoya darling! Hello?" range's voice brought me back to reality; I looked at her, "there you go, darling, are you alright? You zoned out looking at suoh."

I nodded "yes, I'm alright. I didn't get much sleep last night, is all; I apologize for zoning out renge."

She smiled at me, "it's perfectly fine, darling! I could never be mad at you; I made some cookies if you want some! They're on the table. Also! Would you like to go out to the garden with me once you're done with this? I'd love to look at the flowers with you!"

I sighed slightly "not today, renge like I said, I didn't get much sleep last night."

She pouted and walked away as I closed my laptop with a sigh.

God, she's so annoying... I want to kill her so bad, but if I do, I won't be able to join her family company. But if I do, I can take over her family company... so many options...

I leaned back a bit.

Maybe I should kill her.. she'd be out of my way, and no one would think it was me since she told everyone I was her fiancé... all I would have to do is pretend to be sad about it. Easy.

~part 1 end~