juke :so hard

emotions

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julie woke up at the sound of her alarm , she groaned and went to get dressed for her school , she wore a blue oversized shirt and blue leggings with her vans , she tied her hair on a high ponytail and applied lip gloss , she took her phone and her school bag and went downstairs , she felt nausea and dizzy , she walked to the fridge and drank water , " had fun last night with ur boyfriend ?" she heard luke , she swallowed the water and turned around , luke rested his elbow on the table with his chin on his palm , she took toast from the toaster and started puting nutella on it " so with that ...... i see you were spying on me " she said in a threatening tune , " well actually .." he said as he stood properly and walked to grab an apple , " we were searching for u , we were worried " he said and took a bite from the apple " we thought you were kidnapped , we waited for 2 hours u know "he said, julie felt guilt raising along her body she looked at her feet with a sad expression " sorry " she said " sorry ? now ? nah-uh i don't think it's gonna happen too late they'll forgive u but i .... i won't " he said and poofed away .julie just stood there not knowing what to do or say , her eyes started to tear , she got her friends upset and worried about her , then she took her phone and texted flynn '911' but flyn didn't answer , flyn on the other hand was upset too she was looking for her too , she looked at her phone and knew that flynn read it but didn't answer , she wiped her tears and went to school with a sad face , she reahed her locker and opened it , she was expecting flynn to be there but no , flynn was no where , she looked at the photos that was hanging on her locker door , her and flynn photos her and carries , she touched the photo that has the three of them sadly , as a tear rolled down her cheek , she started singing sadly ,.

A million thoughts in my head
Should I let my heart keep listening
'Cause up 'til now I've walked the line
Nothing lost but something missing

julie sang as she closed her locker and started walking throw the  students with sadness 

I can't decide
What's wrong, what's right
Which way should I go

she looked at flynns locker to find flynn talking to carrie laughing , she smiled at that .

If only I knew what my heart was telling me
Don't know what I'm feeling
Is this just a dream?
Ah oh, yeah

as she continued her way , she was thinking of her friends and her band , until she reached the middle of the hall , she started to see everyone as luke , reggie , alex, flynn and carrie's mad face , she started to get scared 

If only I could read the signs in front of me
I could find the way to who I'm meant to be
Ah oh, if only
If only
If only

she started to look at every face that was around her , with tears in her eyes 

Every step, every word
With every hour I am falling in
To something new, something brave
To someone I, I have never been

she got even more scared , she started running , bumping into everyone in her way 

I can't decide
What's wrong, what's right
Which way should I goIf only I knew what my heart was telling me
Don't know what I'm feeling
Is this just a dream?
Ah oh, yeah

she saw herself in the court , she started dancing sadly while singing

If only I could read the signs in front of me
I could find the way to who I'm meant to be
Ah oh, if only
Yeah

she started to walk to the bleachers and sat down 

Am I crazy? Maybe we could happen
Yeah
Will you still be with me when the magic's all run out?

she stood up until she was in the top of the bleachers 

If only I knew what my heart was telling me
Don't know what I'm feeling
Is this just a dream?
Ah oh
If only I could read the signs in front of me
I could find the way to who I'm meant to be
Ah ohIf only, yeah
If only, yeah
If only, yeah

she sat down looked at the pictures in her phone 

If only, yeahIf only
If only

she felt weak and sad for the second time , as she scrolled through the pictures she felt of a hand on her shoulder , she jumped and saw it was her mom , her mom , the ghost of her mom , " m... m -mom ?" julie said as she wiped a tear , not believing what was in front of her " yes mija it's me " her mom said with a warm smile , julie hugged her and cried on her chest " shh .. mija don't cry ... i know what you're gong through " she said julie then stopped crying and sat back up looking at her mom " mom , they're upset of me mom" julie said crying once again " it's okay , i went through this too , but u know what i made it up to them " she said smiling " h.. how " julie asked rose smiled ," you have to have faith and be brave , try apologize , make them feel like you love them , that you care about them " rose said , julie nodded and looked at her hand with a smile " thank yo- mom ?" julie said then she realized that her mom disappeared and that she was sent to help her , she looked near to her to see a white flower on her phone , " white is being brave " julie said , she took the flower and smell it , it was nice smelling she smiled and took her phone before standing , she turned to where her mom was and smiled " thnk u mom " she said and walked to the school with the white flower in her hand . she was mixed up with emotions , happy ,sad ,worried and scared , but she smiled through her pain .