(BoyxBoy) Behind everything unspoken

Six chapter

ME:"Nothing,just...I told her to fuck off"

Then he raised his head and looked at me curiously. What?

Something about his gaze and energy was good,but I didn't know what.He looked cool and attractive. He didn't have a deep voice,but quite soft.
He started laughing muffledly, but it only lasted a few seconds. Cute.

CARLOS:"So...You refuse her."

ME:"I got her off me because I didn't want damn sex."

CARLOS:"She wasn't pretty or?"

ME:"No,she was...I just didn't want to.I have my reasons."

CARLOS:"Are you gay?"

My whole organism turned to those questions? How he can know that? Do I look gay? Does my aunt know it?
Shit. Stop overthinking it,damn.

ME: it's not...that."

I didn't have the courage to tell him "yes"

CARLOS:"You're free to say. I'm gay too."

ME: "I don't have to answer that."

CARLOS:"Well...do you want to go outside?It's pretty fucked up here."

ME:"I don't know.."

CARLOS:"Come on, boy.Just the two of us...Do you want to leave this place?"

I take a deep breath

ME: "Yeah."

I don't know why I said that, or how I managed to be so relaxed around him.But then I remembered.Alcohol, of course.
I drank quite a lot with them.I'm still sober, but I felt the effects of alcohol in my body. That's the only good thing about these stupid parties.

CARLOS:"Come on"

He took my hand and started to pull us out of the crowd.I stared at our connected hands all the time.
I was confused to heaven.

Okay,I'm definitely gay.

Just holding hand with guy is more saxy then kissing the girl.
Alanm proved me that.

CARLOS:"Do you want to have some fun?"

ME:"What do you mean?"

He still wouldn't let go of my hand, even if we left the club.No one looked at us weirdly. I have always thought that people would beat me the same second when they saw me with a guy.

CARLOS:"You know, the amusement park works all night."

ME:"You don't really mean..."

CARLOS:"Yes.Ofcourse.Come on.You need to relax."

ME:"I already did.I drank a little,you know?"

CARLOS:"Even better.Come on."

ME: "But it's one in the evening"

CARLOS:"The nights are long, aren't they?"

ME:"I guess..."

CARLOS:"I like to hear that."

ME:"I definitely wanted to get out of there."

CARLOS:"What about your friends?"

ME:"Oh, forget about them.They're too busy making out with girls."

CARLOS:"Yes, I relate...My friends,too."

ME:"I usually hate places like this."

CARLOS: "It wouldn't be that bad If they played better music and if there were more gay men"