Dear Elizabeth

Doubting Love & Self-Control

Liz,

Days ago, I realized I was starting to fall,

Falling for someone who I shouldn't and can't have,

You're still young, but I need someone in who I can confide,

Love can be something hard to define,

It started with a hello here and there,

It ended with sleepless nights of repeating that beautiful name,

Sometimes things appear to be too good to be true,

But they can happen, if that's what you choose,

They say that he who laughs last, laughs best,

But that isn't always the case,

Certain feelings can cause deep damage,

Especially if you push them away to keep up with a certain image,

There are so many things I wish to say,

But it's hard to when I can't even say your name,

If you are reading this, you know who you are,

You are holding in your hands the pieces of my heart,

I wonder, I really do,

If the circumstances were different, what would we do?

I would take you in my arms any given day,

I would make you happy, I wouldn't let you get away,

Every morning, I would appreciate your looks,

Give you hugs, hold your hand, you'd be something I would never lose,

I'd be there to catch you if you were to fall,

And if you wanted to, I would fall with you just to be by your side,

I would run the extra mile just to be with you,

In any problem, I would help you get through,

I have a pain in my chest, and I can't breathe,

You are my oxygen, you are my need,

You do more than caffeine,                                                                                                                  You are my drug, and I'm an addict who holds much greed,

I am so stupid, so blind,

I told myself that, for you, I wouldn't fall,

Your name is forever carved in my skin,

Because of you, my walls have become very thin...

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Sorry for that rant, Liz,

They were words I needed to speak,

I promise I'll try to be strong,

I won't let heartbreak reach me one more time,

Till then, I will listen to every depressing song,

Sing, weep, eat, sleep, maybe whine,

And think of how I was wrong,

I will get over what my heart carries inside,

Liz, Lizzy, El, Eli, Eliza, Betty, Beth,

I don't want anyone, but that someone to say my name.

                        I am yours forever,

                                                 Elizabeth