Friday
25. June 1964
Who would have ever thought that a day could ever come,when I'll see our love like this fall into pieces.
And it hurts me to know that now till then, I'll only have this memory.
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"Te amo Thels"
She was shocked just as i was then,i saw it in her eyes even before she quickly tried to conceal it.
"If that is a new word in the Spanish vocabulary Rowland,i know what it means already."
" I'm not trying to teach you a new Spanish language Thels. I'm telling you what i feel for you"
Sighing deeply she said to me " I waited for these words long ago Rowland".
" I know... I had felt the same way right before you Thels"
" So why didn't you give us a chance then?"
" What's there to give a chance to? It would be me hurting you Thels and i cherish you too much to do that to you".
" You know I'll always want to be with you,but sometimes in this life we will have to accept the things we can't change". I said
" You should have tried" She walked to me and wrapped her arms around me.
"You should have tried" She reiterated. "I heard there is no harm in trying Jamike".
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"That was the first time she used my native name...She looked at me like a lost sheep".
" I kissed her instantly. For the first time in my life i kissed Thelma Albert. I kissed her and it felt nice,it felt so good enough that i craved for more"
" Literally,i was the Oliver Twist who asked for more but unlike him i did get a second portion. I got more than i wanted, more than i could ever ask for,more than i bargained for".
" I SLEPT WITH HER"
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"This shouldn't have happened Thels"
" I know and I'm sorry"
" Stop it's not your fault... I just don't want you to have any hopes Thels... You are a good person and I'd hate to...."
" It's okay Rowland" She cut me off.
" I understand you... Matter of fact,it never happened. You won't hear it from anyone,it's going to be a little secret i will gladly take to my grave,I promise you"
" I don't care about that Thels,i trust you already. I just need you to be safe".
" I will be fine".
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"I left for my parish after the rain had stopped and prepared diligently for the ordination. I did the necessary things and finally i was ordained a deacon".
" She came for the ordination,she gave me a pair of Italian shoes as a gift and left afterwards."
" After that,we barely spoke to each other,it was even harder on phone. I sensed she was trying to avoid me,and deep down inside of me i appreciated it too. Though i missed her but i was happy that she choose for me to fulfill my dreams".
" But a week to my ordination as a Catholic priest,my final journey,a dream i had relished so much, a dream that i just couldn't wait to fulfill. I got a call from her asking to meet her at her place".
" I finally got a chance two days after her call and went to her place. I met Adiele her cousin on her way out. After exchanging pleasantries,i went inside and met Thelma who was fidgeting nervously with her hair."
" She looked quite different though,pale and something else...."
