When Love Makes A Mistake (Book 2 of WL Trilogy) (ML, #2)

Kabanata 8

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Kabanata 8

Right thing

“I’m sorry…” I felt something on my shoulder. Napatingin ako doon. May coat sa akin na nagtatakip ng likod ko. “I’m too occupied. I’m sorry. Napapagod ka na siguro sa paulit-ulit na pagngiti at sa mga posisyon kanina.” Umupo siya sa tabi ko. But I don’t felt any hatred to him. And I don’t know why.

Benj gave us a 30 minute break. Pagod na pagod na ako talaga dahil parehas kaming nagkakamali ni Yuan. Ilang mura na rin ang lumilipad sa isipan ko sa nangyayari. Lalo na nung kanina na si Benj ‘yong gumawa ng posisyon. Nanghihina ang tuhod ko sa titig niya. He was invading me. And I can’t do anything.

But right now, hearing those words from Yuan makes me feel sad for him. He cares too much. He loves me too much. At sa sobrang ito ako natatakot coz I don’t feel anything towards him.

“Yuan…” I’m not sure of what I’m thinking. Napahawak ako sa balikat niya. “It’s okay…parehas lang tayong nagkakamali.”

Napangiti si Yuan sa sinabi ko. “Something happened. I got a text from my secretary about our business. Something went wrong. Yung hotel namin sa San Mateo…nagkaproblema.” Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa balikat niya. That’s not good, though. Kaya pala parang may problema siya kanina pero hindi niya lang pinapahalata. Ang laki kasi ng responsibilidad ni Yuan sa kompanya nila. “And I don’t want to disappoint my dad,” he added. Sobrang worried ang mukha ni Yuan kaya nagwoworry din ako. Damn.

“No…you won’t disappoint your dad, Christian. No.” And things got more complicated. Yuan immediately gave me a peck on my lips. Ohgoddd, what did I say? Binibigyan ko lang ba ng false hope si Yuan? No…mali ang iniisip niya. Pero wala akong magagawa.

“I love you so much, Leigh. This love is too much. And I won’t surrender…or give up.” Napalunok ako pagkatapos. I felt sad, angry, or nothing but I can’t do anything. How can someone fall in love with me? But I can’t feel any love at all? And not sure if this is love to opposite sex?

“Get ready. We’ll start in a minute.” A voice came around. Sabay pa ata kami ni Yuan tumingin sa nagsalita. “In a minute.” Inulit pa niya ang sinabi niya. Napatingin ako sa mukha ni Benj. No brows or forehead furrowed. He is guarded. I can’t sense any emotions. Siguro dahil wala lang ito sa kanya kahit makita pa niyang halikan pa ako ng isa ni Yuan. Who the hell am I to think that he’s still concern with me? “Get ready.” Benj added and turn his back. Pumunta siya agad kay Jezel. And kiss Jezel hard on lips.

And I’m not guarded coz I feel something inside me ache with that kiss. I hope I can have armor, too—armor to avoid this kind of feeling.

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Tinignan ko mula sa malayo iyong ginawa ko. May kulang dito. Ewan ko, mas gusto kong tignan sa malayo yung mga painting na gawa ko. Isang taon palang akong nagpe-paint pero pakiramdam ko buong buhay ko na ‘tong ginagawa. Kahapon noong pauwi ako pumunta akong mall para bumili ng gamit. Naiwan ko kasi sa NY ‘yung gamit ko.

Hahakbang na sana ako pabalik sa upuan nang tumunog ang phone ko. Napapunas ako sa pantalon ko at kinuha iyong phone sa bulsa. Unknown number? Number sa ibang bansa ‘to.

“Hey, Leigh. How’s life without Lana?” Napakagat ako ng labi nang marinig ang nagsalita. Pero kusa na ang bibig kong ngumiti sa kanya.

“I’m good you know without Lana,” and I can’t contain my excitement right now. I miss her. I fucking miss my friend in NY—my only friend.

“And I’ll never tell you how i fucking miss you, Leigh.” Lana said in the line. Napatawa ako sa sinabi niya.

“Clingy, Lana. Too clingy,” sabi ko. Napatakip na ako ng bibig sa tawa ko sa kanya.

“Damn.”

“Love you.” I said.

“Clingy, Leigh. Too clingy.” Inulit naman niya ang sinabi ko.

“Can I get my ‘I love you, too’ from Lana del Rey?” Oh my god, I miss this girl. Siya lang talaga ang palagi kong kasama sa NY kahit noong pumunta kaming Paris. God, miss this girl. Sometimes sa condo ko na siya natutulog. Minsan sa kanila na ako tumutuloy Mygoooddd, I miss NY because of her.

“Sorry, Leigh, I’m taken. My heart belongs to someone else. Sorry if I reject—“

“Fuck,” I swear, laughed, and giggled at her statement.

“So..so…” Napatigil na ako ng tawa nang sumeryoso na siya ng boses. Ano naman ang balak ng babaeng ito?

“What’s up?” Umupo ako sa upuan ako. Tumitig sa painting na ginawa ko. May kulang talaga dito. Parang walang buhay, I don’t know if nagkamali lang ako ng combination or may kulang lang talaga na hindi ko maisip-isip.

“You left something here in NY.” Napakunot ako ng noo. Gusto ko ng magsalita sa sinabi niya pero naunahan niya ako. “Your necklace.  Gold cross pendant. And you’re supposed to be you-know what I mean—a ring.” I gasped. What the hell?!

“Are you serious?!” Napakapa ako sa leeg ko. Oh my goddddd! Wala nga siya. At ilang araw na ako sa Pilipinas hindi ko pa rin napapansin ito!

“Congratulation, Leigh Alegre! You forgot these two important things you have in your life. We should celebrate!” May palakpak pang kasama si Lana sa pag-aasar sa akin.

“Ha-ha. Funny.” I rolled my eyes. Pero sa totoo lang nangangamba na ako. Nakalimutan ko talaga ‘to. And how I can get those things? Goddd, Leigh, such an irresponsible girl. Grow up!

“How can you get these things? Ha?! Brat girl!” Lana almost shouts on the phone.

“You know I love you. And you know I can’t get those things. And I know that you love me, too, Lana.” I bit my lower lip. Sana…sana…sana talaga parehas kami ng iniisip ni Lana.

“Fine! Sakto! Uuwi ako ng Pilipinas. Where should we meet Alegre?” I almost shout at her statement. I gasped many times. Mygoddd, I love Lana. I love her so much na!

“I fucking love you, baby girl Lana.” I laughed. Makukuha ko na rin ‘yung necklace na sobra kong iniingatan at hinahawakan kapag sobra na akong kinakabahan.

“Ha-ha…” I know…I know…she rolled her eyes. “See you soon, lovely bitch! Love you.” And the line went dead. I’m too excited to see her and to get my things from her. I hope she can stay a little longer here in the Philippines. O kaya wag na siyang bumalik sa NY at mag-stay na lang dito. That will be very nice and amazing to me.

Sana bukas nandito na siya…si Lana. And those things I got from Benjamin: the gold cross pendant and the ring (which is actually I didn’t get from him pero nakita ko na lang na nahulog noong sinabi kong tama na ‘yung sa amin) sana nasa kamay ko na ito.  

Napapikit ako nang maalala ko ‘yung nangyari.’Yung gulat ng mukha ni Benj and when he turned his back and said nothing but a question if this was I want from him? Coz I know that time, I was too selfish to let him in and I can’t do anything but to let him go for the right thing.