Stay || Martinus G ||

Part 10

-If she is sleeping dont wake her up...she really needs to relax

She shows me the way and I slowly walk to her door.

I knock the door softly but noone answers so I just open it and go inside. I see her body laying in the bed...her face resting in the pillow. Her eyes are closed and I can hear her relaxing breathing.

I know that her mum said me not to wake her up...and I won't do it...but I can't leave. I am afraid that if I leave and come back later she will have left again.

I sit next to her and watch her. Her face is a bit pale and she really seems tired...but she is so calm right now. Without totally understanding what I  do, I take off my shoes and go closer to her.

I wrapp softly my arms around her and place my head next to hers in the pillow. She doesnt wake up but she place herself better in my hug. I smile and I enjoy her body on mine. I relax a bit and keep notice her while she is sleeping. These days I have slept only a few hours cause my mind was on this beautiful girl who has stolen my heart. But now I know that I have her in my arms and she can't go away so my eyes close and I fall asleep

Alina Pov

I am in the middle of the road and a car is coming to me. I try to run and leave but my legs are stucked in the road. I shout and cry for help but nobody is there. The car is one meter away from me and I can't do anything. I shout my mum, my dad and my brother to help me but noone is there.

Suddenly I shout Martinus but he is not there too. I close my eyes and shout for the last time hoping that the car will stop.

Martinus Pov

I wake up from Alina's shout. She is sweating and she probably sees a nightmare. I stroke her back trying to wake her up but I dont succeed. She starts to shout and I hear her shouting my name. I immediately start to move her and telling

-I am here...Alina wake up..I am here

She opens her eyes and when she sees me she wrappes her hands around my neck. She starts crying and wispers

"You saved me...you saved me...It was so close to me...I swear I couldn't move"

She breaths quickly from the shock and I still keep her in my hug trying to calm her.

"shhhhh its okay...You are okay...It was only a nightmare "

She keeps crying for some minutes and then she goes back.

-Oh wait...how are you here?

-I was waiting to see you in school and talk but you didn't come. I am so confused of the situation between us all these days...I feel like I have done something wrong and you just go away from me

-Martinus it's not like that...You havent done nothing wrong..It's all my fault...

-What's wrong? What happened in a single day? On Friday everything changed. You were acting weird from the morning...then in the afternoon you couldn't come and you forgot to say it to me...I know you pretty well Alina...You would never forget to tell me this..Tell me what happened...please tell me. I have been awake all these days thinking what has happened and I can't find what's wrong..

I take her hand and kiss it. But I notice that it has some marks there. She sees that and she takes her hand away.

-Alina what are these?

-Nothing...Forget it

-How am I supposed to forget some marks on your hand?

I started to search her hands for other marks...I am worried...maybe someone hit her...I dont know.

Suddenly I notice something in her shoulder under her hoodie. I went to look at it better but she was going back.

I saw her in the eyes and she was looking at me afraid. I held her hand and didn't let her move. I touched her shoulder and it looked like doctors had closed a wound. She had closed her eyes and didn't talk

-Alina what has happened? I am so worried...

she breaths and open her eyes

-You dont have to worry..This is not important...I just hit injured there on Friday and I had to go to hospital..thats all. But I have to say you something...

-Does it hurt?

-Noo its okay..I said you don't have to worry...I really need to tell you something.

-Tell me

-Soo...All this between us has to stop..It's not your fault...you are an amazing person.It's just me who don't know what I want. It's weird for me.. I just cant keep going with this...I feel pressure..and I know that this is maybe painful for you but I think that I still love my ex boyfriend

Her words hit me hard...I open my mouth to answer but I can't tell anything. My eyes turn wet and my hands are shaking

"But...How? Are you feeling pressure from me? I cant understand...you say that I did nothing wrong but...but you are here telling me that you dont want me in your life..telling me that you still love your ex.."

"I am really sorry Martinus..but this is the truth"

she says with a calm face..I get mad and I stand up.

"Alina tell me the truth for a fucking time...ALL THESE ARE BULLSHITS...EVEN YOU DONT BELIEVE YOURSELF. I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE ME...YOU CAN'T HIDE IT. TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK HAS HAPPENED AND YOU ARE ACTING LIKE THAT...YOU CAN'T LOVE YOUR EX...YOU WERE SHOUTING FOR ME IN YOUR DREAM..NOT HIM. OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY THE TRUTH CAUSE I FEEL I AM GOING CRAZY..."

I feel my face burning...my neck hurts cause I was shouting at her. But I can't stand this anymore...she needs to tell me the truth

Alina Pov

He stands up and starts shouting at me. His face has turned red and I can see his vein in his neck. When he said what he had to say I don't know what to do...It's so hard for me..I try to hold my tears back..he has already undertstand me... I breath and while seeing the floor I say

"Martinus...you better go back to your home..our discussion ends here.."

I hear his steps coming closer. He stand in front of me. He places his hand under my chin and he makes me see him in his eyes

"Look me in the eyes and say that you don't love me...Say it and I am out of here. I will never bother you again...I promise. Say these four fucking words and you will never see me again"

My tears running through my cheeks. I open my mouth to say it but it's like my brain doesnt let me tell it. He is waiting me still having his hand in my chin.

"I..Martinus..I don't..."

I take a deep breath and I look at him

"Martinus I don't love you"

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Complicated situation...hmm

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