Like a Virgin: what if I was Harry Styles?
Me: idk like I don't know what I'd say
Me: I like you, I mean, I love you as a friend
Me: and maybe in the future we can be together
Me: when you come clean and stuff
Me: but I don't think I'd ever feel something for Harry
Me: I mean, idk it'd be weird
Me: why, are you Harry?
Like a Virgin: no, I was just asking
Like a Virgin: I didn't have a final question so I made something up
Me: oh... I guess yeah
Me: I believe you
Me: if you say you aren't harry
Me: I feel like you talk about Harry a lot
Like a Virgin: well you do too
Me: that's because he annoys me
Like a Virgin: I'm just trying to be relatable
Me: I honestly don't think we have much in common
Me: like you and I are so different
Me: I don't know anything about you and I can't ask anything because you can't tell me who you are
Me: and it's driving me crazy because I want to know who you are
Me: idk maybe this is a bad idea
Me: you and I talking and stuff
Me: maybe we should just stop for a bit
Like a Virgin: are you actually pushing me away again
Me: I think we both just need time to like figure everything out
Me: because I like you but I can't like you and I know you but like idk I don't know you
Me: and I just don't know what's going on anymore
Me: I'm sorry
[[ H A R R Y ]]
I huff and shove my phone in my jacket. I open the door to my first period classroom and take my seat in back. Usually Maggie seats in the fourth row in the back but she isn't today. She's sitting in first row, first seat. Its basically the opposite side of the classroom from me. She doesn't have her phone out like usual.
Because she's not talking to you. She's just sitting with her head on the desk. I cough and move in my seat a bit.
Nothing.
I feel like such an idiot. I should've just told her who I was when I had the chance. I should've just walked up and kissed her at that party. I should've said something that night at Alex's.
Why should I keep this stupid game going? She will never, ever feel the same way about me. I was foolish to think I could change her mind.
I think it's just time to move on. I've tried everything to get her to change her views on me. There's only so much you can try to do before feeling like you're just riding a dead-end road.
I'm just going to move on. It's plain and simple. If she really cares, she'll make an attempt this time.
Me: hey. sonic after school?
Megan: after you dumped me? no.
Me: I didn't dump you. we weren't together.
Me: besides I missed you babe (:
Megan: fine. you're lucky I love you and I missed you babe <3
Me: i'll meet you out in the parking lot at 3:30?
Megan: ok. now be quiet, class is starting. we have to graduate babe.
[[ M A G G I E ]]
Honestly, I'm just really confused right now. I like this guy, yeah, but I can't like him. Like I literally don't know anything about him. I thought this whole secrecy thing was going to be easy, but it's not. I can't explain this feeling I have when I talk to him. I just want to talk to him all day and it's not like it's ever anything super interesting, I just enjoy his company.
I just wish he'd tell me who he is.
I think I just need to move on. I need someone who's here. I need someone who isn't afraid to tell me who they are and isn't afraid to be with me. I just don't think he's worth this back-and-forth game.
Me: aye, sonic after school?
Tim: hell yeah
Me: how are you and jasmine?
Tim: fabulous. how are you and your 50-year old serial killer?
Me: i told him i needed space.
Tim: you guys are TEXTING how much more space do you need
Me: shut the fuck up
Tim: MAKE ME
Me: WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO ANNOYING
Tim: WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO BITCHY
Me: HOW DOES JASMINE PUT UP WITH YOU
Tim: HOW DO I PUT UP WITH YOU
Me: asshole
Tim: bitch
Me: DON'T YOU HAVE SOMEONE ELSE TO ANNOY
Tim: you texted me first dumbass
Me: shuT UP CLASS IS STARTING
Tim: DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO
Me: WHY DOES ALL OF OUR CONVERSATIONS TURN INTO INSULTS
Tim: BECAUSE FUCK YOU
Me: loser
Tim: emo
Me: try my life
Tim: rED ALERT TEACHER RUN BISH RUNNNNNNNNN
Me: tim?
Me: timmy?
Me: timothy?
Me: you did not get your phone taken away
Me: i s2g
Me: timothy michael you didn't
Me: god dammit
Me: who's going to entertain me now?
Me: WHY DO YOU ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME
Me: THANKS
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The lovely smokegasm made me a trailer. It is the most adorable thing, ever. I don't know if you can see it on mobile, but it's in the sidebar so. I've never had a trailer before, so this is quite exciting. thank you so much.
