Miss Matched

Chapter 28: Shattered

"Do you really need to leave?" Harry asks with his green irises widening

I ruffle his hair "That's Milan Fashion week love.I wouldn't get anything like that any time soon and besides, you're leaving too..."

He pouts "This sucks..."

I chuckled "Don't worry love... I'll make it up to you when we get together"

He sighs then nods

I'll be leaving the day after tomorrow for Milan while Harry and the boys will go back to U.S. to do a couple shows which will last for a minimum of 2 weeks

"We still have tomorrow..." I grin hopefully at him

He smile upon remembering that it is Alex's birthday tomorrow and Louis has planned a surprise party for her which means that we'll be spending the whole day together

"Could you two stop being all cheesy?... Now I miss having a girl mate" Niall says kicking Harry's knee lightly

Harry and I laugh. It was Karaoke night and they decide to do it here at our place instead of Harry and Louis'. The boys are here along with Alex and Jill. Louis is fixing the TV while Jill and Zayn are preparing our food on the kitchen. Alex is busy watching Louis and Niall is sprawled on the sofa with Liam while on the other hand, Harry and I sits lazily on the lover's seat

"Shut it mate! It’s not like you're not use to it already" Harry says throwing a pillow at Niall while grinning

"I am but..." He threw the pillow back "...you two are being extra cheesy today"

Both of them laughs while throwing the pillow back and forth, I caught the pillow in mid-air before it hits Harry in the face

"Guys stop it!..." I pinch them both gently in the nose "...you two are like 3 year olds"

"Cute 3 year olds!" Harry corrects with a playful grin

I roll my eyes at him and pinch him in the cheeks "Yeah, you're so cute but really childish..."

Harry shifts his position so that his head was on my lap and his feet is on Niall's lap.Niall groans then stand up and sit on the carpeted floor instead

"Harry!" I ruffle his soft brown curly hair

He beams widely at me before laughing at Niall's reaction, making me also laugh with him

"You should laugh more often..." Harry says

I look down at him with a smile "And why is that?"

His hand touches my cheek then he lets it drop "... You look much prettier"

I chuckled "You’re just saying that 'cause I'm your girlfriend and you're kinda expected to say that..."

"There's that. But seriously, you look a lot prettier"

I began drawing patterns on Harry's forehead while he kept smiling with his eyes close

"Thank you for everything Harry..." I whisper looking at Harry's angelic face

It's not hard to love Harry in fact it's really easy but I don't know why I just can't do it. I mean, I do love him dearly but I still love Zayn more than him... I'm still trying to love Harry more and I think I can do it. I hope I can, I wanna make Harry happy even for just a short time

It's all about making Harry happy now. It's not about me or Zayn. It's about Harry because I really wanna repay everything he does and he'll do for me. Well, a small part is about me, just a really small part for I felt the pain that comes with loving Zayn and I don't wanna experience it again which means I should stay away from Zayn

"Does that entitle me to anything? I mean, don't I get something?" he asks grinning sheepishly

"Oh... So you want something in return?"

"It's not that I expect you to give something, I'm just saying..."

I roll my eyes at him then pinch him in the nose "What do you want anyway?"

He pretends to be thinking then a naughty smirk spreads across his pink lips "I don't know... Maybe a kiss?"

I heard Alex's muffled laugh which made me look at her

"What?" she asks

"Why are you laughing?"

"Nothing... It's just that you're so cute together and I enjoy watching you 'cause you are definitely better than TV shows..."

Both Harry and I laugh loudly

"Hear that love, we're better than the TV shows"

I ruffle Harry's hair again "Good job Haz!"

"So... Can I have my kiss then?"

It wasn't that hard now, pretending to be Harry's girl since he makes it easy for me and I'm kinda use to it now for we've been doing this for almost a month already

"Just a quick one on the lips, okay?" 

His sleepy green eyes widen. I guess he hadn't expected a kiss on the lips

"Really?" he asks lowly

I smile at him and whisper back "You're my man, remember? A kiss on the lips is nothing..."

A smirk appears on his lips again then he places his hand on the sides of my face and I place mine on his too then lean down and place a kiss on his soft lips

It was just a split second then our lips parted and he open his eyes revealing his dazzling green irises. We smiled at each other for a while then...

*CRASH!!!

We both look at the living room's entrance and it both surprises us.

Zayn stood there frozen with shattered glass in front of him. He was looking at us with a surprise expression. When he notice that both Harry and I were staring at him, he immediately looks down

"Are you okay man?" Niall asks standing up

Zayn shakes his head and looks up at him with a smile "It's nothing mate... It just slipped"

My eyes where glued on Zayn and I felt Harry's gaze shift from me to Zayn then back to me again. Zayn kept his eyes down as he picks up the glass fragments. Harry stands up and walks towards Zayn

"Let me help you" he says smiling

Zayn shook his head with a smile that surprisingly hurts me inside "I can handle it mate..." He looks up at me "...you should just go back to your girl"

It feels like the wounds in my chest re-opens and they're much more painful this time going straight to my core all at the same time

Harry stands up and just sat back beside me, stroking the back of my hand

I don't know why that hurted me so much. I guess I know why but I just don't wanna admit 'cause I'm afraid that if I did, he'll be able to hurt me even more

Everyone was looking at the 3 of us. Liam, Niall, Louis and Alex stopped what they were doing. I felt Jill was starring at me and because of that I kept my eyes down

Everything was silent...

"Um-... We could do the party at our place instead.. Um- the.. The T.V. won't work" Louis says breaking the silence

All of them look at him except for me, who still has my eyes glued on the floor

"Um-... That would be great... Right Kaleen?"

I look up at Harry and his eyes reflect the pain in mine.