Guns and Stilettos (Agent x Mafia)

Trump Card

CHAPTER FOUR

I r i s

31st of July, 2022 at 1922H

"Mmm..." Lexy moaned while pulling my hair. It was raining so we stayed in the car. I was touching her and she was really enjoying it. "This is why you asked me if my ride has enough legroom." Sa sobrang pagiging adventurous ko, pati sa pakikipagtalik, gusto ko, ganun pa rin. Basking in the ambiance.

Kusa nang nagtanggal ng damit at bra si Lexy. She's always like that. It all started with a one-night stand between us. I don't even know why and when did we start doing this. According to her, the all-night sex blew her mind, and since then, she can't get enough of me. Likewise. Well, I did give her my name. I trust her.

All of a sudden, bigla niya akong tinanong ng, "Do you love me?" Hay, naku, ito na. Ito na ang katapusan ng pagiging sex buddies namin ni Lexy. Kasi 'pag tinanong na ako ng ganyan, tinatapos ko na lahat. Iniiwan ko na sila at iniiwasan. Delikado ang trabaho ko, and I can die anytime, kaya ayokong mag-commit. Never will. Kawawa lang ang maiiwan ko, at mas lalo lang akong makakasakit. "Iris, uy, mahal mo ba ako?"

"I told you not to fall in love with me."

"I-I can't help it."

"Lexy, we talked about this."

"I'll do anything, just love me." Mangiyak-ngiyak ito habang ako naman tinitignan ang malakas na patak ng ulan sa lupa. "Iris, please."

"Lex..." To be honest, napamahal na rin ako ng konti sa kanya. Bitchy pero may class, kind, and beautiful. "I don't thrive with commitments." Sana maintindihan ako ni Lexy. Kung pwede ko lang sabihin sa kanya ang totoo, ginawa ko na sana. Selfish as it may seem, maybe I do love myself more. I'm married to my job and I can't betray her. It's all I have.

"Hindi mo ba talaga ako mahal?"

"I can't-"

"Kahit konti lang, wala ba?"

"I do, Lexy, but I can't."

"Why?"

"Hindi mo na kelangang malaman." Inabot ko sa kanya ang kanyang damit at sinabihan siyang isuot na ito dahil aalis na kami. Ihahatid na niya ulit ako sa headquarters kung nasaan ang aking sasakyan. Hindi kasi ako nagpapahatid sa bahay. Mahirap na, baka matiktikan pa ako. "Isuot mo na 'yan at nang makaalis na tayo."

"I thought we had a chance."

"Lex, you know that it was doomed from the beginning."

"Why can't you be with me?"

Umiiyak pa rin siya kaya naman ako na ang nagsuot sa kanya ng kanyang damit. "Gusto ko, pero hindi pwede, eh. Noon pa man, I forbid myself from commitments. Relationships are not for me," Pangungumbinse ko. Hinalikan ko ulit siya sa labi bago niyakap. "And now I think it's time for you to go home."

"Just like that, huh?"

"It has to be."

"So, uh, friends?"

I didn't need to answer that. I kissed her again, hoping she'd forgive me. One day, she'll come to understand. "Okay na ako rito. Ikaw na lang ang bumyahe pabalik."