Hurt//Jonah Marais { completed }

twelve

there stood a tall man in my doorway.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE" i screamed

"i need you." jonah said trying not to cry

  "i'm not dating jenna. i never did. i never wanted to." jonah said.

"but yeah. WHY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU" i said.

"yes, but you don't wanna talk to me at school." jonah said trying to keep his tears in.

"yes because you girlfriend told me to STAY AWAY FROM YOU." i said softly then started to yell

"SHES NOT MY DAMN GIRLFRIEND. I DON'T EVEN HAVE HER NUMBER OR SNAP OR INSTAGRAM" jonah yelled and cried. my heart broke when i saw him crying i got up and hugged jonah. he started crying more.

"im sorry" i said into his chest

"its okay." jonah said still crying

"no its not. i should have listened to you"

"i wouldn't have believed me either" jonah said stopping his crying. i let go of the hug and stared in his puffy eyes. he still looked beautiful. I don't know what came over me but i smashed my lips into his. i could tell he wanted to do the same. we walked over to my bed still kissing. we just made up and after two months i start making out with him and might have sex. i did miss him. but i wasn't thinking straight. once we got to my bed jonah took off my shirt and stopped. i totally forgot that i cut there.

"emily" jonah said tearing up

"i'm sorry. i'm so sorry." i said

"why. why did you do this"

"don't hate me please jonah"

"did you cut anywhere else?" jonah said. i shook my head but he didn't believe me. he took off my pants and saw cuts on my legs to. he dropped to the floor and started to sob.

"jonah. i'm sorry" i said. he sat there crying

"jonah. please talk to me." i said to jonah dropping on the floor begging him to talk to me. he just cried. did he really care for me that much? i dont know

after 2 hours of me sitting next to jonah while he cried and my head down in my knees he stopped crying

"did i make you do this" he said in a sad raspy voice i lifted my head

"no. oh god no" i said

"are you sure. i'm pretty sure you hate me"

"jonah. it's not you. or jack or corbyn or zach"

"you didn't say daniel"

" i know. because him and jenna made me do this. they make me think im not wanted. you, you are someone i wanna be with all the time. you actually make me so happy at lunch even if you don't see me smiling. i'm smiling on the inside because you are there." i said to jonah

"can i stay here tonight" jonah said

"yes of course. i can go sleep on the couch in my living room if you want"

"no. emily. you are sleeping with me. i wanna make sure you are ok all night"

i nodded my head and we both snuggled into my bed and watched netflix. i wanted to talk to him but i dont know what to say. i put on 13 reasons why assuming he was ok with it

"please no. i feel like this is going to happen to you and im going to be clays tape and i dont want you to die." he said. i stopped it and went to stranger things.  it was just about 3 and we were still watching stranger things. we didn't say a word to either other. but i was all snuggled in his chest. and i know he was happy because his heart was beating fast. i need this like 2 months ago.

OOF. THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY