sometimes
i find it hard
to explain why
night time
and sleep
are no comfort
to me.
isn't it
a pause button
from everything?
not to me.
after i've said goodnight
all that remains
is silence
and
darkness.
a terrible combination,
really,
that breeds melancholy
it is the time when
pain falls
over my body
like a blanket
made of lead
and i am
alone.
i toss
and turn
and toss
and turn.
it doesn't
annoy
or anger
me.
i just
wish
my pause button
worked.
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the color orange, and other things twisted by chronic illness
Poetryone person's reflection on living with fibromyalgia